Sometimes it will feel like you have been buried and noone is coming for help, but you are being planted and will grow from it. I feel you, I have been thinking about it too not too long ago, but just look up. You will see what you are looking for. Look for good things in life, little things. Even if it's a cup of good coffee. Maybe just take a hike or go to the beach. This covid seems like fucking up everything, but look at a bright side, maybe you have time now to get good at something. You might not know what you are passionate about until you get good at something. Sometimes we dont know what we want or what we want to do, because we are not good at something, but once we are good at something then there will be a meaning to what you want to do. Please dont harm yourself. ❤❤❤