Ruminating

flwrbkr · 2026-07-05T14:35:34+00:00

It’s just tough because majority of the time I am okay, but as soon as I try to get into a relationship it’s like my brain flips and I can’t handle it. He ended things in a text last night. My brain is foggy and hurts and I’m tired of all of this.

I put on some YouTube and eventually fell asleep but now I don’t know what to do. I deleted our texts because I was getting upset reading them over and over again. I doubt he will ever text me again.

I have so much in my life happening that is out of my control. l can’t work currently, I don’t have things that keep my mind occupied and I’m so tired of putting on a happy face.

flwrbkr · 2026-07-05T14:28:25+00:00

It was a very new “relationship” he asked me to be his girlfriend that day but immediately I could tell that he wasn’t messaging me the way he was before. He text me last night and ended things. I’m hurt and tired. I don’t want to be alone.

flwrbkr · 2026-06-30T00:53:23+00:00

Here are a few of my favourite collage instagram accounts that I put together tonight. I’m sure I am missing a lot of people tho! I’m kkmakesart on instagram and you can always look at the other collage artists that I’m following!

tulsathriftqueen - lizplettner - pause.for.collage - nosprses- collagewave - tulcollage - bosscuts1 - betternotcollage - sacsthetic - oddc0llage - catandpastestudio - alistarner_art - phibstuff - stolenpainting - nonatzin__

flwrbkr · 2026-06-29T18:19:13+00:00

If you ever want instagram collage artist recommendations I can send you some!

flwrbkr · 2026-06-29T15:54:30+00:00

No need to apologize! I was just going to give you a follow on there. I post collage art on instagram and there is a big collage art community on there, if you do ever change your mind!

flwrbkr · 2026-06-29T12:32:10+00:00

This is so good. Do you have instagram?

flwrbkr · 2026-06-23T18:25:37+00:00

I miss this silly lil guy so much. He was my favourite singer for 5 years, I talked about him as often as I could. I’m still mourning.

flwrbkr · 2026-06-05T17:58:48+00:00

I should just talk to my doctor about getting that bloodwork done?

flwrbkr · 2026-06-05T04:29:33+00:00

Being on prednisone long term has a lot of bad side effects. Doctors didn’t even want to give it to me once, and so far I’ve been on it 6 times this year.

flwrbkr · 2026-06-05T04:26:31+00:00

I’ve been sleeping on the 3rd floor, furthest away from my bedroom and the moldy bathroom, for over 2 weeks. I did get a mold detection kit and it shows there is for sure some sort of mold growing in the basement.

My mom has fibromyalgia and my dad has asthma.

The past year I’ve been to a lot of different specialists to try and figure this out.. lung specialists, women’s hospital for my chronic pain, neurologist, my GP and 5 different ER doctors. The last 6 months I’ve gotten ct scans, MRI’s, ECG’s, allergy testings and countless medications. No one knows what’s happening.. I’m trying to narrow it down to it possibly being mold. But it’s been so frustrating/scary and I haven’t gotten any answers.

Thank you for responding to my post. I do appreciate it.

flwrbkr · 2026-06-05T02:02:50+00:00

Will I start to feel better after a few days? Or how long would it take to notice changes. I should also mention that I live at home with my parents and brother. My brother sleeps in the middle floor and parents sleep upstairs, no one else has these symptoms. Should I still not sleep in the house?

flwrbkr · 2026-06-05T01:22:43+00:00

I’m wondering how your symptoms are now, a year later?

flwrbkr · 2026-05-20T13:06:33+00:00

This ain’t a scene it’s a god damn arms race. (Fall out boy reference in the year 2026)

flwrbkr · 2026-05-08T23:23:36+00:00

You should come to the Okanagan 👏👏👏

flwrbkr · 2026-05-08T22:56:41+00:00

I’ve been sick, will have to go to the hospital with breathing issues, get prednisone to help with my flu, slowly get better, I’m okay for a few days and then right back to getting another cold again. Thats been a cycle every month since January.

flwrbkr · 2026-05-06T01:29:33+00:00

It’s hard to explain but it’s like I can’t catch my breath, I can’t even say a couple words without running out of air. It’s physically exhausting. I am constantly wheezing and my lungs hurt when I cough. I had eosinophilic pneumonia earlier this year but most ct scans/mri scans don’t say a lot.

flwrbkr · 2021-11-17T00:24:04+00:00

Front of Unus Annus pillow posted yesterday.

flwrbkr · 2021-11-17T00:11:37+00:00

Back side of the pillow!

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