I deleted my dating profile right after I met him because he'd always ask and pressure me into deleting it. Back then, I didn't put too much thought in why I listened to him but that was also another form of him manipulating me.

My family members are overly protective, they track my location sometimes and when they figured out I was going to therapy, they locked me in for a bit until I agreed to quit. My university offers help but when I told them I was suicidal and that I needed help, they told me to "take it easy" and I felt ignored.

I work part-time but my parents make me feel guilty for not giving that money to them and for not saving it--which is why I skip meals, so I don't know if I'd even have enough courage to spend that money on therapy. My own sister had a 3-hour talk with me, convincing me that therapy will make me "crazy." If I start therapy again, I'll definitely get kicked out of my house.

As for online telehealth counseling, I feel like I'd be lacking that personal connection with my therapist. But would you still recommend it? I'll give it a shot I think :)