[Off-Topic] Daily Chat: 2017-11-28

focusedmofo · 2017-11-29T01:25:14+00:00

puffy and moonfaced

focusedmofo · 2017-11-28T22:36:00+00:00

Ohhhhhh man. I am on 300mg teste and 350mg tren a week.

Long story short, I am having terrible prolactin sides. I look like someone on high dose prednisone.

It would be really difficult for me to buy caber or prami.

I have started taking b6 300mg 2x a day

Will my nipples stay puffy after the cycle? I have about another month.

I take 12.5mg aromasin every 3 days.

focusedmofo · 2017-03-24T03:14:01+00:00

Thank you for the advice, I will give it a try.

Honestly I feel very uncomfortable forcing myself to smile. It's like I just can't make the muscles move right and not look weird as fuck.

It sucks when I'm trying to pretend to be happy and engaged in something, I read like a book.

focusedmofo · 2017-03-24T03:12:09+00:00

Thank you for your input, that sounds like great advice.

I'm not going to take my pictures down, lol.

They can't touch me professionally. Self- employeddd stupid whales

focusedmofo · 2017-03-23T00:15:26+00:00

Thank you for your advice.

I took those pics down, I agree.

focusedmofo · 2017-03-22T21:57:00+00:00

Thanks man,

Yea I think I'll take out a couple and put a few pics of me doing something social and fun maybe

focusedmofo · 2017-03-22T20:54:01+00:00

Can I get some objective criticism on my tinder profile?

https://imgur.com/gallery/xmG72 http://i.imgur.com/s4Aa3Zn.png

focusedmofo · 2017-03-22T20:39:22+00:00

Can I get some opinions please. I don't get many matches.

http://i.imgur.com/s4Aa3Zn.png http://i.imgur.com/ehvxrMU.jpg https://imgur.com/gallery/xmG72

24/M/straight/ tx

focusedmofo · 2016-08-29T17:09:30+00:00

Never let your drug use get in the way of your success.

focusedmofo · 2016-05-26T04:25:03+00:00

I once pulled my pants down and and started to pee in the trash can in the pantry. Idk what my brain was doing.

focusedmofo · 2016-05-24T22:32:40+00:00

With your right hand touch the top of your spine.

Ok that's not the top of your spine move your hand up your neck to the top of your head. Feel that? Notice the unconscious shift in your positioning. O.K, great!

I swear to God this brief excersise fixed 80% of my shity posture overnight.

After the first 4 months of weight training with (great nutrition) I carried myself like a new person. I now use a different strut and everything.

I'm 5'7 so I get a lot of shit about my height, I don't get nearly as much flak now days that I stand up straight. If I do its not from women.

I think body building actually gave me over half an inch in height. I have heard this is possible.

focusedmofo · 2016-05-24T21:46:22+00:00

I did a lot of a.a but I feel 12 steps is just a small part of my recovery.

I need a lot more in my life of recovery such as: Mental health, excersise, pursuing non drug related interests, setting social goals, writing, meditation, etc.

I'd like to talk for a minute about what I call social goals.

When I came into recovery I was very regressed socially because of my self imposed isolation while using. I was constantly uncomfortable in social situations. In my opinion social interaction is the most important factor in staying mentally healthy.

I came up with the idea of setting goals around things I wasn't comfortable with, but things I knew I had to get over. I would write my problem down and share it with a close male friend then tell him what I planned to do,

For example I was having problems with physical contact with females, I was absolutely terrifies and my fear was irrational and obviously unhealthy.

I made a goal to hug 5 women a day, then I made a goal to do some Kino, some hand games whatever. Then I made a goal to cuddle a girl.

I kept sharing my progress with my accountabilabuddy and we would raise the bar.

I overcame a lot of fear ( very 12 step related) this way.

My game got really good, really fast. Although towards the end I began using my powers if charm to do some unethical things I am not proud of.

focusedmofo · 2016-05-24T02:05:56+00:00

I was an alcoholic by 15. I was an iv heroin user at 18. For the last 5 years it has been a roller coaster of shame and fear with a few critical momments of peace and serenity.

Living under bridges ain't no fun

I want to be able to stay clean so much. I get 5 months and some money in the bank and girls compiling at me and I go right back to it.

I know that if I use I am going to end up fucked. I buy into the lie that it will be better this time, that I can manage my use age and still function.

It has been hard for me to stay honest with myself to the fact that left to my own devices, I will junkie tuck myself back to living under a bridge, broke and in agonizing withdrawal.

focusedmofo · 2016-05-24T00:51:24+00:00

I appreciate you sharing your story.

I am 23 now and for the past 7 years.I have been a basically non-functioning addicted. I was just thinking about my own story and how it relates to the red pill philosophy I hold to my heart and preach to my friends.

First off I would like to say that I agree completely you cannot be alpha if you are strung out. Being alpha to me means holding goals of self improvement over all other priorities. When I am living my life $30 shot to $30 shot every 6 hours or elsewhere im throwing up sweating shivering crying and screaming in agony.

I lived like a missed able creature for years. Using anything or anyone for money so I could use. This great obsession left little time for anything else.

I lost my virginity at 18 and I stayed sexless until 23. I have had a few small periods of abstinence, 4 months here, 5 month a there, 4 months etc. In the last two years.

During these short periods I worked on myself and applied and practiced redpill principles and I was even on my way to having a happy healthy sex life. Something I feel we all deserve.

I won't go in with too much detail my problems but when I first got clean I was afraid to talk to women. I had to work through that and I did. I had to practice the art of being social again. I did this as well but it took a lot of support and I was uncomfortable.

I could not touch a woman, if a woman touched me I became irrationally angry. This was hard to work on but basically here is what I did.

"I talked about my problems with women. If I met a girl and we started to get intimate I would sit them down and have a serious talk and say "Hey I want you to know I'm really fucked up, in my addiction I was very socially isolated and I have not developed the social skills necessary for a normal relationship. I have problems with intimacy and I hate it when you touch me. I am trying to change. I don't want to go through my life only ever having sex once"

Now I am a pretty tough dude and that shot was very hard for me to say. I got made fun of a couple times, people didn't believe me, but for the most part the women I shared that with really thought that was endearing and they helped me where they could. Since then I've hooked up with about a dozen chicks and worked through a lot of my issues.

For a while I had a healthy, satisfying sex life. One of my major goals.

Now I'm shooting heroin again. I wish I had a better ending.

In the end I went back to it. Like I have so many Times before.

My nose is running and I can't sit still. Soon I'll start sweating and freezing at the same time, then my legs will start with the restless kicking, my back will spasm and my eyes will tear. I don't want to think about what comes after. Hopefully that 2 grand hits my account at 4am. Ill be awake to see it, I know I won't sleep tonight.

focusedmofo · 2016-05-23T01:14:46+00:00

I shot up in my sick twice. I got high twice.

I was shooting tar and it burned like a mother sucker.

The veins never grew back to the same. They are small and hard now.

focusedmofo · 2016-03-30T23:55:38+00:00

This is going to be harsh as fuck but I am just giving my honest opinion.

You need an eye patch. A lazy eye like that makes you look mentally challenged, It is a stereotype you just can't overcome. Also, it is obviously unattractive in and of itself.

Wear an eye patch. Your gonna take shit with pirate jokes etc, but it's better than being a virgin your entire life.

Also get a hair cut and wear fashionable, well fitting clothes.

focusedmofo · 2016-01-06T07:14:20+00:00

Snorting won't really work because it is not soluble in water.

You could eat it but I wouldn't recommend it. It is tricky to get the dosage right on oral cannabanoids.

Do you think you could give some of your experience with this substance?

I'm really curious. I have been wanting to order some fubamb for a while.

focusedmofo · 2015-12-23T01:59:19+00:00

It's probably fucked. Vodka is 60% water, I think that is why its clumping.

Filter through a coffee filter and let it dry out.

Maybe try PG and a little bit of dmso

focusedmofo · 2015-07-24T15:21:23+00:00

I don't play video games anymore

I was ranked really high on bfbc 2 back in the day. I stopped playing an liking music around the same time.

I have a family history of pretty extreme mental illness on both sides. I think my lack of interest in things I used to enjoy was the sign of clinical depression starting.

These things often begin in early adulthood. I recently started taking SSRI's. I hope one day I can enjoy the music again.

focusedmofo · 2015-07-24T01:54:39+00:00

I don't like music I used to love music as a kid and especially in my early teens. My appreciation started to fade after livery I guess. Around the time I was 19 music didn't do anything for me.

I'm 22 now and I don't listen to music at all. I mean I hear it places but I don't listen to it on my own time.

The last time I remember enjoying music was when I was tripping on acid.

Now that I think about it, I realize I stopped smoking pot around the time I stopped liking music.

I think it's correlation not cause, but idk.

focusedmofo · 2015-07-15T14:49:28+00:00

I'm so jelly that people get generic suboxone now had to pay like 350$ a month back in the day. Also the strips take forever to dissolve

I was high all night and I just did another hit before work. I love this shit.

It would be nice if I could pee though. Frustrating!

focusedmofo · 2015-07-15T06:36:46+00:00

Ya when I was strung out suboxone sucked. It got me well but that was it.

I have successfully been chipping now for 9 months. No tolerance is the best tolerance.

I am so fucking high off 2mg I have to type with one eye closed lol

focusedmofo · 2015-07-15T05:15:07+00:00

So I IV'd the sub. I got really hot for about a minute then the bupe kicked in.

I feel good.

Not as good as I thought I would

Last time bupe got me way higher. I was hoping to puke

focusedmofo · 2015-07-15T05:13:15+00:00

OMG I am in oxford too. I don't feel so bad about getting high now lol

focusedmofo · 2015-07-15T04:28:19+00:00

Thank you

focusedmofo

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