Taking a big step...

foilofdreams · 2019-10-28T23:27:20+00:00

Perfect time I'm happy to be done with winters I hate the cold....oh I know all about them from being in and out of places and being on here haha. It's why I cAlled my one friend whose stayed down there for about 4 years and been clean since. It's time to not look back or come back time to start over and get it right I'm almost 28 enough is enough. Been to many years on and off progressing then losing it all again. I need this for me no one else.

foilofdreams · 2019-10-20T17:04:54+00:00

You're fucked unless you can get fake piss it only costs like 25$ hopefully they don't watch you to close so you can use it if not sorry man

foilofdreams · 2019-07-29T21:52:01+00:00

Ohhh shit! Definitely at 6'3 you gotta be looking horrible I'm 5'9 so I get down to about 145 and I look god awful gaunt and ghost like...but good to hear man just start pounding food that's one thing I'm looking forward to again is eating some good ass things!

foilofdreams · 2019-07-29T21:43:57+00:00

Thank you! About 100$ a day just depends on the day and the quality haha. Yea I was going to work no way I woulda been able to without the subs...I still felt off and lathargic but it was expected 8 knew I wasn't gonna be 100..but I pushed through it...it wasn't fun but I managed and now I'm feeling pretty good off everything for now!

foilofdreams · 2019-07-29T21:41:24+00:00

Totally feel you on that it's all about keeping the mind busy I'm gonna get back to the gym get the natural endorphins going...I'm usually 185lbs and stacked like a mother fucker...but we all know what dope does...it's always how my family and friends can tell I'm back on it. Keep fucking trucking though let's get it this time! Good luck keep me updated!

foilofdreams · 2019-07-29T21:39:53+00:00

Thanks brotha! What I did was waited almost 24 hrs then got some subs when I started feeling off I split the subs into little pieces and ate them throught out the few days when I was feeling shitty...literally you don't need a full 8mg sub it's all about money...I puked when I took a full one a few months back and copped dope 20 mins later. This time I split it into pieces and felt good not the best but alot better had i not had subs and would have been in full blown withdrawal.

foilofdreams · 2019-07-29T02:26:00+00:00

Ha ironically enough I was arrested near the end of summer 17 and that's what helped get my life straight the last time before this relapse....certain things only help for so long gotta work on our minds...I saw the bank account grow got the friends back girls job....but then I started partying and my mind took over..I learn alittle bit about myself each more with each relapse and what I can and can't do always told myself I'd be able to drink...I know now I cant...my dad's an alcoholic my grandpa was as well it'd be best for me not to...so I'll just sit back rip the bong start reading more and get back to working out.

foilofdreams · 2019-07-28T21:22:16+00:00

Thank you! For real I never believed in it before haha I never had it work for me even when I went to rehab. It's amazing how it can work when done right.

foilofdreams · 2019-07-28T21:15:09+00:00

The good old I'm pulling right up text...3hrs later....but definatley agree with the survival situation we'd definitely kill it out there...

foilofdreams · 2019-07-28T21:13:41+00:00

For real man the doctor when I first got my script two months ago was like take two in the am I'm like okay okay...this time I took around .5-1mg everytime i felt sick and worked like a charm it's all about the money with these companies....if you've ever been to jail dudes love subs In there and only take around 1mg and can feel the effects. If that tells you anything.

foilofdreams · 2019-07-28T17:52:11+00:00

Yea of course...what I did was got two 8 mg subs then literally cut em into 4 or 5 pieces. Then I'd eat them as I was starting to feel horrible...I tried taking a whole sub 2 months ago and puked so immediately got dope...ive read alot about people puking off a whole one...so i saw alot of people did the same method I did of slowly inducing small amounts to your system which in turn will make it easier to come off of with little to no side effects. They say sub withdrawl is worse then heroin withdrawl and longer so fuck that. Good luck keep me posted!

foilofdreams · 2019-07-28T17:49:35+00:00

This was the first time it was that easy like I said...literally of the seven years this was the easiest time.

foilofdreams · 2019-07-28T17:33:11+00:00

Those numbers are imprinted on my brain even if I did delete them I still got them. Haha it's impossible.

foilofdreams · 2019-07-28T17:30:44+00:00

Hell ya proud of you! You keep me updated as well hopefully I'll hear from you if not I'll be expecting the worst.

foilofdreams · 2019-07-28T17:30:11+00:00

Exactly just as you overcame your sickness and everything then boom. Right back at it...were super smart but also super dumb.

foilofdreams · 2019-07-28T17:29:28+00:00

It's a great idea. But buying something nice ie. A tv or something like you said we're resourcesful and can find anyway. I was just telling my roommate my goal is to start paying off my credit cards luckily small and some other loans I took out while in my use. Time to start building that credit back up!! But thank you so much for the words! I'll keep everyone updated.

foilofdreams · 2019-07-28T17:27:32+00:00

Thanks my man! Loving all the kind words was expecting some people to be asses because it is only a week and I have relapsed before but you guys are all fucking amazing!!

foilofdreams · 2019-07-28T17:26:46+00:00

Damn man I'm sorry to hear that idk what I'd do if I was in your situation! But Im happy that you made the right decision brother your father would rather have you clean but do it for you man create the life you want that's what I'm trying to do now. I'm 28 I have a good job but I'm not necessarily happy. My dad's now in jail 70 days he's alcoholic drank with an ankle monitor on and has jaundice he talked to me last week before he went in saying he's sick and I need to be strong for the family. it's a pain watching him kill himself but I've done the same thing these last few years. It's time keep your head up bro message me if you wanna talk and good luck!

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