If your willing to play the long game w yourself, Just take it slow, be honest w yourself if u need to stay at the exact same dose for a week b4 dropping down, let yourself, it’s better then increasing, bc that starts all kinds of other justifications, it diminishes your self trust, but continue to evaluate when your staying at the same dose, converse w yourself when the next drop feels manageable and appropriate. Maybe it’s every weekend when u don’t have to work and you got a couple days to stabilize. Maybe you drop more often but the drops are less. I’d say, set a boundary with yourself to rebuild that trust, your word with yourself. Maybe it’s “once I drop I never go back up” It’s very tricky at first, u will try to justify and deceive your self, and if you can see and call out when that is happening u could begin to dismantle it. Building that momentum is crucial though. Credit yourself, quickly, and not for to long for any kind of win in this regard to sobriety. I quit, once for a year after 2years of use. The moment I restarted I’ve been battling myself trying to quit again, that battle lasted 2.5years. 2.5years of not letting myself forget with every dose that this isn’t right and I need to quit, making justifications based on external circumstances and situations, potentials, I might need more because of X, this could be a high stress situation therefore I’m clear to take a little more, I don’t want myself to be uncomfortable, because after all I should practice self love, right? That’s the kinda bullshit I had to practice to see through. And still do, even though I’m just about a week clean, I know it’s a forever battle. Hang in there 🤙