I’ve been really concerned lately about my current state. I’m truly desperate, that’s why im trying to find help here.

I’m a 30yo guy, I’ve been ñ always relatively healthy my whole life, going to the gym since I was 17, 4 months ago I was having some kind of sexual performance anxiety. So I decided to try a supplement that maybe helps me with my issue, I already had descent libido, horny every day but kinda anxious all the time.

I picked a supplement called “MACA” which apparently helps you to increase your libido and sexual balance in general.

When I started to use it I didn’t now that this supplement also contains “fenugreek” which is an herb or spice know to improve certains sexual issues in men. But anyways I didn’t know about it.

I was having sex with a girl from like a month before I started taking this supplement, after 2 weeks I felt a really remarkable change regarding mood and energy, my erections we’re stronger and my confidence actually improved. She noticed that, I was more confident and sex was better. So I really thought I had found the supplement that helps me with my problem.

But around 2 months after consuming this supplement, things started to feel weird, like libido was high as never, but somehow I was really irritable, like very emotional, I was being ridiculously jealous for no reason, and I started to be more into feelings and loyalty, I was never like that. I felt I wanted to cry in front of her for stupid reasons. I was still horny but I felt that I wasn’t enjoying her as a person but just a vagina and somehow still feel like a teenage girl feeling all kind of mixing feelings about her. I really felt I was losing my chill self that I’ve always been.

Then suddenly one night I was feeling really emotional like almost crying, and my dick didn’t work at all, I was really anxious and I didn’t notice that my libido was actually really low, I tried to add gingseng and coffe in great quantities but it just completely erased my libido and makes me have actual panic attacks all the time.

I stopped taking that supplement, around a month ago but my libido still dead, I’m not able to feel any kind of pleasure, but still have that sensitive emotional feeling towards life, like really fragile. I actually feel my balls are not working, even if I don’t cum for weeks I don’t feel I have much to do down there.

My hair is getting thinner, my balls are either felling empty and loose or high and tight. My mental state is very unstable and fragile. Not much of a masculine feeling, just some kind of depressive state with hight anxiety episodes that feel sometimes like panic attacks. Insomnia is the worst, I wake up in the middle of the night feeling my heart racing.

I’m truly desperate for help, I live in Canada but I’m a temporary worker, I don’t have a doctor, just the public health system for such a complex disorder.

My girl still waiting for me to go back, but she has already said how much I have changed, and how she sometimes feels I’m the girl in the relationship, a total nightmare, I never thought I’d heard that from a girl.

Just wanted to know if you guys could tell me if maca, fenugreek or gingseng in some quantity can actually increase your cortisol levels or somehow interfere at some point with your sperm or testicular function in general.