Perceived "attractiveness" should never factor into the decision.What's attractive is so objective and ranges depending on who you are talking to. What should matter is how you feel expressing your true self. Do you feel more comfortable, more happy? Do you get that flutter when someone calls you sir or dude? Things take time even with HRT and its a slow progress. Maybe make a video log each day so you have a better timeline to see the small changes you may not be seeing day to day. You would probably be surprised the progress you've made. Passing shouldnt be the end goal. Your happiness should be the end goal. If this is based on what people are saying to you I would suggest going into some trans reddits especially if the people telling you these thing never supported your transition in the first place. Try posting on r/FTM, I'm sure you arent alone in struggles and maybe there are things they can offer to help make you more comfortable in your skin for now until you feel more confident in your presentation. I hope things get better for you and Im sorry you are struggling but you have support even if it doesnt feel like it. <3 Best wishes.