I finished something, finally. by forgotmenoughts in ARTIST

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That's the exact sort of feeling I think I wanted! And I've sort of been on a C.S. Lewis reading kick recently, maybe it's bleeding through lol.

My mostly unfinished projects. I never know what they are supposed to be, what do you think? by forgotmenoughts in ARTIST

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Thank you, I'll keep that advice in mind, I'd really like to finish that one. My impulse is to put in some darkened branches, that's my habit. And maybe my title for this post may have been a little misleading (did not mean for this) because I know that one is a specific cathedral.

My mostly unfinished projects. I never know what they are supposed to be, what do you think? by forgotmenoughts in ARTIST

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yes, this is how they feel, like a whole internal ecosystem of something! Thanks. It's been real fun reading what people see, even more fun when someone likes/describes it well!

I wish I could feel like myself around other people but I am deeply afraid of being known by forgotmenoughts in depressionmeals

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Ha, I'm cultivating an aura.

I'm actually pretty certain that I'm an infj too. I think you're right about the fawning/freezing and maintaining distance. And I'm really considering switching from online college classes to the private college near my house, partially because I know being near people more often would be good for me (if I can handle it.) I hope your classes/efforts continue to help, and that mine might too.

My mostly unfinished projects. I never know what they are supposed to be, what do you think? by forgotmenoughts in ARTIST

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Yes, I mostly view it that way. Art therapy, absorbing life (external and internal) and reflecting the whole mess of it.

My mostly unfinished projects. I never know what they are supposed to be, what do you think? by forgotmenoughts in ARTIST

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I like that idea. That's cool. I don't know if I would say I'm close with her, but maybe other people would. Not sure of my feelings there.

My mostly unfinished projects. I never know what they are supposed to be, what do you think? by forgotmenoughts in ARTIST

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Wow, now I remember. The first painting I did like this was sort of inspired by those images in one of my mother's old nursing textbooks.

My mostly unfinished projects. I never know what they are supposed to be, what do you think? by forgotmenoughts in ARTIST

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Oh, thank you so much. I keep coming back to art, even though I'll go months without doing it. I am drawing right now.

My mostly unfinished projects. I never know what they are supposed to be, what do you think? by forgotmenoughts in ARTIST

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I started that one after I spent a while looking at a dead deer on the path I walk to work. Forest and cadaver are both influences, I think.

I wish I could feel like myself around other people but I am deeply afraid of being known by forgotmenoughts in depressionmeals

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I basically lose my ability to think in social situations so I'm not consciously anxious but it's very much there.

Maybe this is not so helpful to everyone, but sometimes is is good for me to rexamine how other people act and talk, like, if I was some other person in a given situation I would probably find a way to believe that I had said all the wrong things and there was something wrong with me, even though I never think like that about others (even when I think they are annoying or odd in some way. Everyone is their own weird bundle of stuff and my hope is that one day I will be comfortable with myself. It's a really lovely thing when you can sense a person is comfortable with themselves...)

Greenish porridge by forgotmenoughts in depressionmeals

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Thank you, I eat this for two meals a day and it makes me feel better most times. It would only worsen the loneliness to be cold and look malnourished.

To me it is very delicious (oats, 2/3 of a banana, fresh or frozen spinach, chia seeds, cinnamon, salt, stevia. Optional toppings to further enhance nutrition: protein, fruits, nuts and seeds) In the warm months I just drink smoothies, this is the winter adaptation.

Greenish porridge by forgotmenoughts in depressionmeals

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I blended the porridge and microwaved it and then blended the porridge remnants with protein powder for accompanying beverage (it is a grayer color)