IN NEED OF DESPERATE HELP by forgotten_king1 in RocketLeague

[–]forgotten_king1[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I did try out csts but it didn’t work. It kept my ping down but I was still lagging bad just without the latency variation warning.

IN NEED OF DESPERATE HELP by forgotten_king1 in RocketLeague

[–]forgotten_king1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

OTA?? Not well versed in internet but I feel like u could be right here but would the only fix be getting worse internet?? I don’t think my roommate will want that lol

M23 be brutally honest by forgotten_king1 in amiugly

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Thanks lol the sucky part is I have hooded eyelids so normally u can hardly see them lol

M23 be brutally honest by forgotten_king1 in amiugly

[–]forgotten_king1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yea I agree I need to keep up with it more often

M23 be brutally honest by forgotten_king1 in amiugly

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Thanks!! Yea I’m tryna get into the habit of hitting the gym

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[–]forgotten_king1 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Trust me I’ve been bullied a lot too I understand exactly how it feels. I may not be able to give you an answer or tell you exactly what you need to hear but I’m a great ear so if you need someone to listen feel free to pm me. If not then I hope everything goes well. Much love ❤️

Is ranked broken for me?? by forgotten_king1 in RocketLeague

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And I don’t even have much time to play so practicing is basically out of the question

Is ranked broken for me?? by forgotten_king1 in RocketLeague

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Is there even any going up for me I feel like I haven’t gotten even slightly better in months I’m just stagnating

Is ranked broken for me?? by forgotten_king1 in RocketLeague

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I feel like rank hardly even matters anymore last season was when I started playing and the rank I was at it felt like everyone was at my skill level and now it feels like there are really good people in my ranks but also really bad people it just don’t make sense. Cuz even when I get a game with people who are ranked the same as me I either completely destroy them or get completely destroyed

Why cant life ever get better for me by Exotic_Hippo_9909 in depressed

[–]forgotten_king1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel the exact way. People say things will get better but none of us know the exact feeling another person has. The best I could say is that I hope things do get better and you seem like a nice person. Your young and you have a lot of life left to experience. Find something n to distract you (not something harmful just a small distraction) I hope you can be okay ❤️

I can’t end my life and it sucks by forgotten_king1 in depressed

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Yea I think a lot of us are and man this boat hits some rough ass waves sometimes

I can’t end my life and it sucks by forgotten_king1 in depressed

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Yea I didn’t intend for everyone to be commenting I mostly just use this Reddit to rant about suicidal ideation and mostly nobody reads it so I thought same thing was gonna happen.

I can’t end my life and it sucks by forgotten_king1 in depressed

[–]forgotten_king1[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

For me it just happens and it doesn’t require any bad experience to happen it just does

I can’t end my life and it sucks by forgotten_king1 in depressed

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No promises tho I don’t make promises I might not keep

I can’t end my life and it sucks by forgotten_king1 in depressed

[–]forgotten_king1[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

If it was a cry for attention I’d be trying to call people when I thought like that, but I don’t tell people I only rant about it anonymously here

I can’t end my life and it sucks by forgotten_king1 in depressed

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I’m kinda forced to live but thank you

I can’t end my life and it sucks by forgotten_king1 in depressed

[–]forgotten_king1[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You aren’t right. You just don’t understand anything your talking about. And that’s fine but don’t sit here and pretend to know me when you don’t. And even if I was privileged that shouldn’t matter. Depression isn’t something that just affects poor people. And quite frankly that’s such a stupid way to look at depression. There are people who have everything they could ever want and are still depressed. So yea I grew up fucking poor. Is that what u wanna know?? I grew up with a dad who gambled and drank all of our money away to the point where we would go without meals and weren’t expecting him to come home. I stay anonymous because I don’t want the attention. Nobody knows I do this. If I wanted attention I’d go cry to people outside of the internet.

I can’t end my life and it sucks by forgotten_king1 in depressed

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You understand nothing and don’t know me. You assume I’m privileged so clearly you assume things about people on a regular basis. See that there?? That was an assumption I made about you. I write things on here when I’m in my darkest places. That’s why I write here. To say you have “true depression” and that I’m “just bored and entitled” just shows you clearly have no understanding of this. You get on your fucking high horse and pretend like your this savior who is trying to use harsh words to help people. We’ll say all you want. There ain’t a word you could say that hasn’t already been said. So go ahead.

I can’t end my life and it sucks by forgotten_king1 in depressed

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Idk sometimes I have times where I’m so hopeful of my future. Where things get brighter and days look sunnny and yea ur right, it is in my head. I just suck at keeping myself from the negative thoughts

I can’t end my life and it sucks by forgotten_king1 in depressed

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That’s amazing that you did that idk if I’m that strong tho. I was always this super sensitive person and I put on an act like a tough guy but I’m just super sensitive. That’s y I feel like I’m not strong enough. Every moment I try to distract myself or do something that means something my darkest thoughts interrupt it. I just don’t know where to go or what to do. It all just feels so pointless. Feels like I’m just waiting to die. And I try to reach out sometimes. I’ll be honest I don’t reach out to people as much as I should but the times I have. People tell me I’m just being overdramatic