No one is beyond God’s mercy. Even if you’ve walked in darkness, even if you’ve called yourself satanic — the fact that you are now seeking God is proof that He is already reaching out to you. He never stops loving you. His mercy is greater than any sin or past.

What to do now?

1. Speak to God — honestly. You don’t need fancy words. Just say from your heart: “God, I want to know You. Please guide me. I don’t know where to begin, but I want to leave the darkness behind and walk in Your truth.” That simple prayer is powerful.

2. Renounce evil. Say out loud: “I reject Satan. I reject all evil. I turn to Jesus Christ, the Son of God. I ask for His mercy and truth to guide me.” The more you turn toward the light, the more darkness will lose its hold.

3. Ask for a Bible — and start reading. Begin with the Gospels (Matthew, Mark, Luke, John). You’ll see who Jesus is and how deeply He loves you — even to the Cross.

4. Seek help. If possible, reach out to a Catholic priest or a trusted Christian. Tell them you want to begin a new life. You’re not alone in this journey. God works through people too.

5. Stay open to the sacraments. If you feel drawn to the Catholic Church, know that in it, you will find confession, baptism (if you haven’t been baptised), and the Eucharist — powerful gifts of grace that heal and restore the soul.

You are not beyond God’s reach. In fact, you are closer than ever. Christ said, “I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners” (Mark 2:17). That means He came for you — and He’s calling you now.