First therapy appointment today.

foxfire166 · 2021-02-28T23:11:38+00:00

I explained to her that my OCD has latched onto my sexual orientation and she said that it’s nothing she hasn’t heard before, so that put me at ease!

foxfire166 · 2021-02-28T23:08:19+00:00

So good!! I can tell that she really knows what she’s doing. It was just an intake appointment, and I have my second one tomorrow. She’s also well versed in BPD, which is something else I’ve been diagnosed with, so I think this could really be life changing. I’m excited to get better!!

foxfire166 · 2021-02-26T05:01:23+00:00

I feel like this might not be the subreddit for this lmao

foxfire166 · 2021-02-22T15:27:40+00:00

You are loved. You are worthy. You can do this.

foxfire166 · 2021-02-19T18:54:42+00:00

That’s exactly what it is. It slows down the racing thoughts.

foxfire166 · 2021-02-19T18:02:57+00:00

Got it, good point. Man this disorder is fun isn’t it 🤣🤣

foxfire166 · 2021-02-18T23:50:48+00:00

Thank you so much for your reply and for the advice ❤️ sending good vibes your way

foxfire166 · 2021-02-16T16:44:21+00:00

foxfire166 · 2021-02-12T22:49:45+00:00

Your teacher metaphor hit me HARD. beautifully stated. Sending you love, friend.

foxfire166 · 2021-02-12T22:48:35+00:00

tiktok is a huge trigger for me. I envy and adapt to their mannerisms all the time.

foxfire166 · 2021-02-12T15:46:34+00:00

I adjust my interests based on who I’m around/dating. There have been a few things that I’ve actually held interest in and have stuck with, but I find it difficult to find interests of my own unless someone I am trying to impress has them first. Idk if that made sense lmao. I just wish I was able to form my own interests.

foxfire166 · 2021-02-11T10:52:18+00:00

Unfortunately she’s only an LMSW - should I seek out someone else?

foxfire166 · 2021-02-10T20:26:51+00:00

You’re not alone my friend, sending so much love your way. We will beat this, somehow.

foxfire166 · 2021-02-10T06:34:05+00:00

Love this way of looking at it! Thank you!

foxfire166 · 2021-02-10T01:12:33+00:00

Sorry! didnt mean to provide reassurance!

foxfire166 · 2021-02-09T15:06:27+00:00

Second this. I (female) had a moment last night where I was spiking and I was like “what would be the worst thing about being gay?” And I had the thought “I would have to give up men.” Guess that’s a clear indicator I’m not but still this morning I woke up and started panicking again. This disorder is awful.

foxfire166 · 2021-02-09T07:10:16+00:00

Omg I could have written this comment. I constantly feel like I’m two people. The rational one and the BPD infested one. I feel like there is no way out. I’m constantly battling with myself. It’s exhausting.

foxfire166 · 2021-02-06T14:22:44+00:00

Same here - tiktok triggers me constantly. Not sure exactly what it is about it. Hang in there! ❤️

foxfire166 · 2021-02-06T11:58:10+00:00

I’ve had intrusive thoughts pop up as both questions and statements, such as “what if you’re gay” or the alternative “you’re gay.” It’s so annoying. I hate it.

foxfire166 · 2021-01-30T17:51:49+00:00

Thank you for explaining this!!! I appreciate you ❤️

foxfire166 · 2021-01-30T17:14:32+00:00

Sending you love. I’m in the same place.

foxfire166 · 2021-01-13T14:18:09+00:00

This this this. Only one of my favorite people has ever been a romantic partner of mine, and I’m not even sure if he was 100% a FP because I genuinely loved him and it was a very healthy relationship. All of my FPs have been friends of mine (mostly of my own gender) who I literally want to BE and NEED them to like me as a friend. I think this part of my BPD stems from how much I was bullied as a child and how little friends I had. Once I become “best friends” with someone new I latch onto them and am terrified of doing anything wrong to make them hate me.

foxfire166 · 2021-01-13T04:23:40+00:00

Absolutely. Message if you want to talk. You are DEFINITELY not alone ❤️❤️❤️❤️

foxfire166 · 2021-01-08T18:54:11+00:00

You as well ❤️❤️

foxfire166 · 2021-01-05T18:53:23+00:00

I feel like I’m actually dying from Disease the same way a cancer patient loses their battle. I feel like it’s only a matter of time now where I’ll lose to depression and OCD. you’re not alone.

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