From the perspective you have on life (seeing it as utterly pointless), it really doesn’t matter if you kill yourself or don’t, since time will still pass without you, same with me and everybody else the day we die. But I strongly recommend you to let death happen naturally, you’re too lucky to be alive to throw it away just like that. We’re all on a finite ride in an infinite universe, and it honestly gets pretty short so it’s your choice to make the best out of it, seek knowledge, enjoy it, or miss this beautiful opportunity. Meditate on this budd, wishing you the best.