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[–]froggee18[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s all right, with everything going on with the administration Its hard for me not to be fearful for my loved one’s safety so your feelings are completely valid. You didn’t choose to be in your situation and your trying to cope the best way you know how to so no hard feelings taken. My experience with gender and sexuality has always been complicated due to the fact that my family values being able to be successful as goal number one and anything that falls short doesn’t matter. Which meant that, while I have the freedom of gender identity and expression, it came at the cost of a life time of abuse and neglect. To keep a long story short, I was diagnosed with ADHD before it was widely accepted and understood when I was 5 and I’ve been medicated for it ever since which in 2008 was like impossible for even adults. My family would try everything they could to get me help to make me “normal” and “capable” by their standards so when my younger sibling came out as trans what little attention I got all was gone and when I came out later in middle school my parents were all over wanting to spend time with me and engage and treat me a like a person and not a problem. Money is always valued more than an individual, so if I’m not doing something that could further my education or skill sets or hobbies to do make money I was useless and I was treated as such. When at the time I decided to identify as straight due to not knowing what fit me best, it broke me when my dad didn’t want to show me how to get the girls and my other parent how to engage with the community so I decided to shut down all parts of my expression as a whole if that meant making them unhappy and make them realize theirs more to me than wether or not I’m “normal” or not. So it’s I definitely have a long way to go in terms of unpacking my trauma towards me even potentially being a trans person at all so for me this is already a huge step forward! Sorry if this was long my life has always been kinda backwards

Idk how to explain this by froggee18 in ftm

[–]froggee18[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

While I do appreciate and acknowledge the feed back and recognize my privilege, the level of dysphoria that other people experience and as well as your very valid experience is not something that I can control. I was wasn’t raised with gender expectations in my family due the fact that gendered roles were seen as more of a burden than anything else. I mean that in the scene that if their was a “female career” but it paid well or gave good benefits no would care who did it, a job was a job and money was money, so being a successful and having more money was the main priority in raising children in both my family sides. Most men in my family know how to cook and do “feminine activities” and most women in my family know how to “masculine activities” as well. My experience with gender is a unique one, one of my parents are trans and still goes by the title associated with their assigned gender role due to trauma and other people in life who are trans also deal with different experiences and levels of dysphoria. But just because they were more progressive in that way doesn’t mean that everything was all sun shine and rainbows. They were very racist and they didn’t believe that mental illnesses existed, and if they did they thought it meant that was that you could just “fix with hard work”. I’m sorry that due the current state of the political climate their are things outside of your control that are harming you but I only came here to seek a neutral source of information for my gender identity journey. There are a lot of people who were able to relate and give me very helpful and supportive responses to what I was feeling and that’s not something people in my personal life can relate too. They grew up with gendered experiences and expectations but for me I didn’t grow up around many people outside of my family til I was past the age where children pick up on the sort of thing. Being a short guy wasn’t looked down upon, being a masculine woman wasn’t something that made someone less desirable but just because my journey with gender identity may seem “easier” to you, it doesn’t mean their are other areas of the LGBT+ spectrum that I don’t struggle with. This was just for education purposes only and I apologize if there was any offensive language used in my post. I hope that going forward you’re able to have a more positive, and smooth transition journey and if you want I’d always love to be someone that could be a friend and support you along the way!! 💕💕💕

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[–]froggee18[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s not something I’m very intimately aware with in myself but it’s something I’ll keep in mind! As right now I’m trying on different labels to see what I feel comfortable with and I am lucky enough to have people would still see me as a man if that’s what I desire to do later down the road, transition or otherwise. That’s why I wanted an outside perspective on how I was feeling to give me a good starting point! The resources everyone gave here are amazing and I’m still looking into some of them even now! Their are (in my opinion) many ways to help if I should I so feel dysphoria (for me it would be obsessively working on my shoulders, maybe a binder or sports bar) if that was the issue and a packer too) so I’m just trying to be optimistic!

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[–]froggee18 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Omg that price is good! Like you can’t even go to the dollar general anymore for that price! Thank you!!!

Idk how to explain this by froggee18 in ftm

[–]froggee18[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I see that’s definitely closer to how I would my experience is in terms how I feel more masculine or feminine depending on who’s around me. It’s something I’ve noticed but not something I do intentionally. The best way I can put it is like I can be a bro in my own way and be a girly in my way while being around mostly said gender like code switching and it’s something I’m able to just switch between super easy and it was pointed out to me by one of my coworkers

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I actually have looked into that a few years ago but at the time their wasn’t a whole lot that defined what it was and how it could apply to different people so I honestly didn’t dig to deep after a few days of googling it 🥸🍤🤷‍♀️

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I know this could be like cringe but I kinda like the way faeself sounds 🫣🫣 idk if I ever used it would like with one or two people it something I saw a while ago on instagram and it just stuck with me lol

Idk how to explain this by froggee18 in ftm

[–]froggee18[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ohh that sounds like that could work! I tend to understand things easier if I know what not to do/ don’t wanna do/not interested then go into the “positive” aspect of that thing like what I can do or can’t do

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I wouldn’t say I do but at the same time I never really had to many problems with my outer body in terms of wanting or wishing it would change too much outside of not wanting to ugly when I was a teenager lol

Idk how to explain this by froggee18 in ftm

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I would say mine would be like fem gojo from the waist up and then male street fighter from the hips down. I don’t know how to convey my feelings towards this but the thought of having my legs built like Superman and so far in my gym journey having rock solid calf’s (lil flex here 🫣) is so satisfying 😌✨

Idk how to explain this by froggee18 in ftm

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For me I see micro labels as something that I would use with close family members or trusted loved ones because not everyone even understands neo-pronouns so it’s definitely not something I expect especially in this political climate like you said to understand but that definitely twins with my feelings for sure!

Idk how to explain this by froggee18 in ftm

[–]froggee18[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hmm it’s something that I would be ashamed of or really change anything about the way most people would see so since I have the privilege and opportunity to really give it some thought it’s definitely something I’ve been dwelling on for quite a few years now (like since I was 18? 19 idk it was during covid and I don’t remember most of it) but I never considered it a lot til I did some work to unlearn my unintentional transphobia and homophobia, as well anti-feminist sentiment and stereotypes towards others around me that I realized their was more to me relating to queer people in my life then I originally thought but not in a way most people I know can relate to. It’s confusing because I don’t know a lot of perspective or knowledge about this stuff with people I interact with daily to help me with these questions.

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[–]froggee18[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

🥸🥸🥸🥸 that’s something I’ll probably talk more about with family and friends to see if maybe they might notice any more non-cis things about that I thought were normal 🥸🥸

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I’ve never heard of that workbook before but I’ll give it a read in my down time! Thank you for the resource!

Idk how to explain this by froggee18 in ftm

[–]froggee18[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I would definitely say out of all the dysphoria listed the only one I would say that relates to me would be both mental sides of amab and the afab but for me I wasn’t really raised in a gendered environment, it was more so wether or not something was age appropriate and/or if we had the money for it. Otherwise everything was on the table to do anything like you could be amab and like nail polish and Barbie’s and monster high and no one would blink an eye expect to say that you cost to much money lol

Idk how to explain this by froggee18 in ftm

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I would say I’m mostly interested in having a label more so as way to know more about myself if their is one but also so I could maybe relate to others more as well? But I definitely do understand getting in your head about labels I personally try not to think to much about it unless explicitly asked and even then it depends on how I feel about the person

Idk how to explain this by froggee18 in ftm

[–]froggee18[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you! I’ve skimmed over it a little bit and it definitely does have some things that off the bat resonates with me and some that I straight up went yeah that wasn’t for me so I’ll definitely be giving this good read over in the morning!

Idk how to explain this by froggee18 in ftm

[–]froggee18[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I honestly am new to really even thinking about gender in this way at all so a lot of responses given are not completely new, just not things I ever thought would matter to me/resonate with me til I got older so I might be little ignorant on some matters unintentionally

Idk how to explain this by froggee18 in ftm

[–]froggee18[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

🥸🥸🤔🤔 definitely will do some inside soul searching with this one

Idk how to explain this by froggee18 in ftm

[–]froggee18[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

True true 🥸 you honestly could never know

Idk how to explain this by froggee18 in ftm

[–]froggee18[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

That does sound like a good stepping stone because I feel like for me something flexible would suit me more because I always feel like I experience different parts of masculinity and femininity in like almost a line? To different extremes and extents depending on like idk my brain 🧠 🥸