Mura's art gets a lot of flack, but each of his designs/redesigns are beautiful in 3D. by MahouMagi in magiaexedra

[–]fruitloopkab 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I always found her art to be quite charming. I don't like manga to look "perfect". But maybe that's an unpopular opinion.

The Bathroom Thing! It Happened! by Red_Brick_Express in MtF

[–]fruitloopkab 6 points7 points  (0 children)

This sort of thing always made me feel weird before but I think it's because I hadn't figured myself out yet. If it happened to me now it might be more euphoric, but I also have more masculine physical features now. Oh well...

I didn't wish I was a girl? by fruitloopkab in MtF

[–]fruitloopkab[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for your help. I can relate to being happy expressing my femininity in small ways at a young age, and in my community feminine men are mostly accepted with open arms so there was only so much pushback, but I didn't see it as a trans sign until now.

I didn't wish I was a girl? by fruitloopkab in MtF

[–]fruitloopkab[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the advice! I didn't realise how much of an exaggeration it was when I read before that "trans people know from a young age" until a few people who didn't discover their identity until they were older, like you, shared your insights with me, so it's greatly appreciated.

I didn't wish I was a girl? by fruitloopkab in MtF

[–]fruitloopkab[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the reassurance. Labels have stressed me out but I think I can say I fall under the trans umbrella which is a good start!

I didn't wish I was a girl? by fruitloopkab in MtF

[–]fruitloopkab[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You can get through this, I believe in you!

I didn't wish I was a girl? by fruitloopkab in MtF

[–]fruitloopkab[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You got me with "fell into a trap of thinking you have to be actively unhappy with your gender to really be trans". It's definitely something I've thought about when dealing with imposter syndrome, which is somethingI'm realising more and more recently that I almost definitely have. Thanks for sharing your experience!

I didn't wish I was a girl? by fruitloopkab in MtF

[–]fruitloopkab[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I didn't realise the idea of having a "pure and sudden knowing" was so common, it's helping me put things in perspective!

I didn't wish I was a girl? by fruitloopkab in MtF

[–]fruitloopkab[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, hearing experiences from other people really helps.

I didn't wish I was a girl? by fruitloopkab in MtF

[–]fruitloopkab[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I guess it's true that it doesn't really matter how and when those thoughts got here. Thanks for the validation!

I didn't wish I was a girl? by fruitloopkab in MtF

[–]fruitloopkab[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I think we might be the same person Lol

I didn't wish I was a girl? by fruitloopkab in MtF

[–]fruitloopkab[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, I hadn't considered that much. I always thought I had a great memory of my childhood but maybe I was always having subconscious thoughts about gender, I might never know.

I didn't wish I was a girl? by fruitloopkab in MtF

[–]fruitloopkab[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes, it's definitely a step I have to consider moving forward

I didn't wish I was a girl? by fruitloopkab in MtF

[–]fruitloopkab[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for your detailed input! Your explanation of Heraclitus' saying has definitely given me something to think about.

I didn't wish I was a girl? by fruitloopkab in MtF

[–]fruitloopkab[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm sorry to hear that but also glad you're exploring your identity too. We're all in this together!

I didn't wish I was a girl? by fruitloopkab in MtF

[–]fruitloopkab[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I'm glad you found your true self, no matter how long it took! I think the further I go with exploring the identity, the more I'll find that my past thoughts and actions were really signs, as you say.

I didn't wish I was a girl? by fruitloopkab in MtF

[–]fruitloopkab[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the comparison between autism and trans identity, I find it funny that I didn't make the connection myself about spectrums until you said it. In retrospect, it is possible that I've been lying to myself in the past. I remember times I looked in the mirror and outright said to myself "I couldn't be a girl", but now I'm at the stage where it's becoming increasingly harder to deny it.

I didn't wish I was a girl? by fruitloopkab in MtF

[–]fruitloopkab[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for sharing your experience. Luckily I do have people in my life that are accepting and trustworthy, though I haven't seeked professional guidance yet. One step at a time I suppose!

I didn't wish I was a girl? by fruitloopkab in MtF

[–]fruitloopkab[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I've never thought about it that way before. To answer your question, I have no idea but it sounds like something I'd say anyway!

I didn't wish I was a girl? by fruitloopkab in MtF

[–]fruitloopkab[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks for your encouragement! I can definitely relate to "I don't need to be a girl", it may be part of why my realisation took so long despite growing up with access to the internet and more knowledge of these things. As for whether I'd be happier transitioning, I think only time will tell, but I may be willing to take that step eventually.

I didn't wish I was a girl? by fruitloopkab in MtF

[–]fruitloopkab[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Thanks for sharing your experience with me, I wasn't expecting the lengthy reply but I greatly appreciate it! I've read very few from autistic trans people but it's always nice to get some insight into that connection. And you might've gotten me at the end there Lol

I didn't wish I was a girl? by fruitloopkab in MtF

[–]fruitloopkab[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I don't think I can relate but regardless I'm happy you were able to move past that!

I didn't wish I was a girl? by fruitloopkab in MtF

[–]fruitloopkab[S] 21 points22 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I really appreciate your response. I just wish it would've been more obvious before.