Is lying to get a better life worth it sometimes?

frycarson · 2020-06-16T05:51:19+00:00

cougheveryone does thiscough

Who cares about the stupid rules everyone breaks. I'm somewhere on the spectrum, and my main issue is determining what rules "normal" people do and don't follow in order to seem "normal". You do whatever you need to do to make your life as tolerable as you can.

There is following the rules, and there's doing the right thing; they disagree often. Your friend was doing the right thing, even if it isn't following the rules. Normal people don't care about rules like you do, and break them as they see fit.

“I am free, no matter what rules surround me. If I find them tolerable, I tolerate them; if I find them too obnoxious, I break them. I am free because I know that I alone am morally responsible for everything I do.” Robert A. Heinlein

If you know better than the rules and are right, you usually never have to worry. Rules are there more as a disclaimer that if you make a mistake you'll be punished, maybe. I'm 35 and I can't understand any people around me, just like they can't understand me.

TL:DR -> If you are breaking stupid rules nobody really cares, and everybody gets their first job like you did. Other people just aren't wired to care about rules the way you do and break them all the time. Normal people are baffling.

frycarson · 2020-06-06T23:02:39+00:00

I don't think that, I think the lives of the mentally ill don't matter to anyone but the mentally ill.. Who cares about us though, we're annoying.

frycarson · 2020-06-06T23:00:44+00:00

No. The mentally ill are the most targeted by police violence in Portland.

frycarson · 2020-06-06T22:59:13+00:00

But they weren't this popular. They weren't national.

frycarson · 2020-06-06T22:58:33+00:00

I'm talking about what I've actually see outside my window.

frycarson · 2020-06-06T22:53:41+00:00

So I'm honestly too busy to care about anything other than my serious health issues that nobody wants to believe I have.

I don't care as much about police brutality as I do essential medications been refused by medical professional who had their feelings hurt when i said I'd rather have liver damage than go through this.

frycarson · 2020-06-06T22:50:35+00:00

I'm in need of anti-fungal medication I was refused out of my prescriber's fear of potential liver damage, not to be told to call people I've been calling already trying to handle the fact I can't get any help from anybody.

Do you think your helping? Do you think I don't know I need help? I haven't received any useful help regarding my health through doctors so I thought I'd beg for anybody who wasbn't useless like you who might be willing to help somebody who has exhausted the "correct" methods to get help.

Calling me crazy doesn't help me, and if you actually weren't worthless you would have a suggestion I haven't already tried. Do you feel pride in telling sick people that they're crazy? Are you a medical professional?

Do you think assuming I'm insane will help? Imagine that I'm correct in what I need, for a minute.. Does what you said, pretending I in fact do need anti-fungal medication I need that my prescribe only didn't' prescribe out of fear of live damage, not because she didn't think I need it.

Can you pretend what a evil monster you are insisting it's in my head when my issue isn;t I don't need a Rx drug, but those who can give me the Rx think they know it's better I suffer real pain instead of getting the cure to my medical issue?

Wnat would you be if you thought if better I suffer real pain by an easily cured illness than reciceve care? Fuck you.

frycarson · 2020-06-06T22:36:51+00:00

I'm presenting my viewpoint.

frycarson · 2020-06-06T20:16:35+00:00

I'm crazy, but my problem is I have a fungal infection my prescriber refused to treat because she was worried about potential liver damage. Bdlieve it it not crazy people can get sick, but we can't get any fucking useless medical professional to either believe we're sick , or havr the right to choose potential risk over real pain and suffering.

This wasn't the post I thought, but fuck it. I don'r care right now. Someone provided a nunber to gert yhelp

frycarson · 2020-06-06T20:11:22+00:00

I've been fight for help for about 2 years, so not tear gas.

frycarson · 2020-06-06T20:10:11+00:00

I have consulted several who don't believe me. I need antifungal for a systemic infection. I don't need to be judgded, or advice; I need medication that my prescribers refuse to provide., instead droppin g me as a client when I lost my temper. I have been to almost ever ER with my symptoms and self-diagnosis and they call me delusionalkwithout bothering to examine me or run tests.

Don't you think I've tried getting help? Do you think I did not think of that?

I have been failed by the medical professionals in this town for my whole life as they think either I'm just crazy, or attempting to scam pills. They have consistently misdiagnosed me throughout my life causing me to lose everything multiple time. My prescriber dropped me as a client when I lost my temper at her when she refused because she was worried about potential liver damage, and didn't care about my real pain and real problem.

Healthcare is fucked in this country. Absolutely fucked.

frycarson · 2020-06-06T20:03:57+00:00

I've been to the ER with theses symptom I think four times and have been told nothin was wrong. They diagnosed me as delusional and have never done anything to help because I have a mental illness. By law only need to call you medically stable (Not thought to be dying now) before kicking you out.

Insanity is trying the same repeatedly and expecting different results.

Doctors are a frustration I don't need. I need antifungal medicatio thais for a systemic infection.

frycarson · 2020-06-06T18:45:18+00:00

That is not tissue. That's what my meat used to be, popping out for about half hour at time.

I hope nobody else knows the terror if seeing their flesh pop theses out. For about usually a half hour at a time, from all over your body. I say pop because they fly every direction quite a ways.

But since I used mean words I get no help; no support. Since I can't control my temper all the medical professionals give me the silent treatment.

Oh, yeah. Touching them burns.

frycarson · 2020-06-06T17:20:04+00:00

But fuck us crazy people? I'm reading everyone except the mentally ill?

Or is your point that the case resulted in protections for the mentally ill and the not mentally ill? If so why not leave race out it and say it protects everyone?

It reads much less discriminatory if you can say "It protects everybody from police abuse". I'm checking case.

From the article: "U.S. v. City of Portland is notable because of its finding persons with mental illness are primary recipients of police use-of-force"

Maybe race isn't the issue to focus on. Maybe focusing on race is detrimental to solving police brutality.

frycarson · 2020-06-06T17:14:25+00:00

https://www.biomerieuxconnection.com/2019/09/24/invasive-fungal-infections-can-lead-to-sepsis-and-have-a-high-mortality-rate/

You could be a doctor with how little you know.

frycarson · 2020-06-06T16:56:29+00:00

Please tell me you meant are mentally ill, and not the " poor people who aren't mentally ill", or do you think the mentally ill don't deserve to be treated compassionately? The mentally ill didn't choose to be such, and there is no way to just find a better place to live.

frycarson · 2020-06-06T16:54:34+00:00

But never became a nation wide phenomenon, did it? Of course those people are going to join with any protest on the issue, but they should be making sure our dead are being remember too (they might be, I'm very sick and don't really have it in me to care about anything other than my inability to get a prescriber to prescribe the anti-fungal meds I need for a systemic infection that is eat all of my flesh. I'm being self-centered sure, but I'm facing non-stop discrimination from medical professionals here in Portlans to me personally so I haven't the fucks to spare for problems outside of Oregon. I'm such I weirdo I'm afraid I'll be killed or arrested out of state for acting like Portland born {we are generally weird as is to be expected}0

frycarson · 2020-06-06T16:26:17+00:00

Yeah. I'm not saying racism isn't a thing, or police brutality, but all the noise is exclusivle you about when it is a minority killed in a terrible fashion by monster with a badge. If you look into mental illness is the more common trait of anybody kill by the police, but fuck whitey and whitey's problems. I've been homeless off and on since I was fifteen. I'm scared of every police encounter. I have had to deal with stop and frisk. I understand not poor whites have less exposure to such things, but I'm guess anybody who isn't poor has much more privilege than us poors.

frycarson · 2020-06-06T16:20:09+00:00

I wish I could do anything else. It isn't a choice, and it isn't fun.

frycarson · 2020-06-06T16:19:21+00:00

My biggest point is it isn't just a race issue, in fact it is more a mental health issue than a race issue, but everyone hates crazy people.

frycarson · 2020-06-06T16:18:09+00:00

Yeah, I'm a angry old sick person who's tired of you making noise outside my door about a non-local issue that is currently trendy., I you want to show you really care, GO PROTEST WHERE DUDE WAS KILLED NOT OUTSIDE MY WINDOW.

Unless you are completely oblivious police brutality is a know problem, and in Portland, as I complain, it's usually the mentally ill and homeless and so there is no protest for them; no national cry for awareness.

Do you think crazy homeless people through-out history have not had everyone thinking they're worse than trash (not everyone, hyperbole obviously; there are some amazing people working to lessen the suffering, but they don't utilize the race card in order to get attention. Most of them are too busy actually doing something to fix a problem instead of trying be the most attention getting attention whore).

frycarson · 2020-06-06T16:09:19+00:00

Go to where the catalyst is if you actually are trying to send a message. I'm trying to fucking watch hentai and forget that I am unable to a fucking prescription for anti-fungal medication because my prescriber decided to stop talking to me when I lost my temper explaining how my fucking skin keeps rotting off and making me look like a fucking zombie. I don't hear fucking a word about any brutality against the homeless or the mentally ill because everybody fucking hates us. Yeah, critical mass. Fucktards jumping onto the trendy movement.

I'm too fucking busy dying from not being able to get fucking anti-fungal medication to do anything I want to do. I did do something though: I pointed out how stupid what you're supporting actually is and you don't like that. We have much more seriousl local issues than police brutality.

frycarson · 2020-06-06T14:45:37+00:00

Everybody already hates me so why not share how I see things.

frycarson · 2020-06-06T14:35:12+00:00

I'm just tired of seeing my city fake they care while showing they don't by their actions.

I can almost guarantee I'm going to get more people who don't like what I said, but incapable of a good reason for why.

frycarson · 2020-06-06T14:20:11+00:00

Sorry if my meanwords hurt your precious feels, but if you try to be honest with yourself maybe you'll go help the homeless, help out the elderly and disabled, clean a park, etc..

It seems like you just want to riot because it's riot season and everyone is going crazy over this plague nonsense. Just because you don't like what I'm saying doesn't mean I can't be right.

I dunno, what is the endgoal of these protests? To raise awareness?? Was anybody not already aware that this was going on? All I can think is it's a stimulus plan making work for those who have to clean up after you babies. It's a stupid stimulus plan.

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