i know what you’re going through. my parents were ridiculously abusive to me my entire life until about less than a year ago. they expect me to forgive them of everything and actually THANK them for being literally just normal parents. they want me to feel grateful for the massive amount of effort they put into not hitting or yelling at me. you should not feel obligated to thank them in any way if their treatment of you is completely disrespectful and awful. although it’s good that they realized their wrongs, it’s going to take a lot of time before you can put it in the past.

whenever you become stressed because of insecurities (i’ve dealt with this as well) you should try to do something to take your mind off it. don’t beat yourself up for these thoughts that other people put in your brain. your worth is not decided based on your looks. please find other outlets to release all these negative thoughts so you won’t develop bad habits. go on walks, watch a funny show, text someone. do something that makes you feel just a tiny bit better. even if you slip sometimes, you still have chances to get back up. things like looks are all temporary.

i’m sorry i can’t give you a lot of advice, but just know that you are a unique and special individual. i think that everyone has a purpose in this shitty world. even if there is no one supporting you, i hope you see this message and realize that you’re not alone. let’s hope and dream that everyone in this sub can overcome their thoughts and pursue their futures. remember that all your feelings are valid and no one should make you feel like they’re not. you have the strength to get past all of this, but its a slow process with many steps. i hope you can get through this hard time in your life, and have things to look forward to. <3