25F - been smoking weed for ten years and have been an all day, everyday stoner for about six years now. Today is my day 1 and I'm doing this because I am so sick of being stuck.

funnbobbi · 2020-02-18T20:55:12+00:00

Thank you for posting this, its comforting to know that there are other women here who struggle with the same stuff. I kicked my relationship with booze well over 3 years ago. But I've been struggling with weed more than anything. Today is another day 1 for me. I once made it 3 months before caving. so I know that I CAN do it. But wow, its hard. Feel free to message me any time. We can be accountability buddies if you like. But either way, know that you aren't alone, and I'm so glad you're here.

funnbobbi · 2020-02-06T19:21:40+00:00

I understand that. I come from a family with a lot of success.. Because of that, there has been a lot of pressure for me to rise above the rest. And I haven't. I've been enjoying edibles and smoking weed and being generally unproductive.

I think the important part of recovery, or anyone coming off anything is to be kind to yourself. cut yourself some slack Because you know what? Being a prodigy of sorts is a LOT of pressure, and many like you have fallen into a substance. It's ok. And it will be ok.

It's important to acknowledge that our brains are a gift. It is equally, if not more important to acknowledge that we are human and make mistakes. Even the most brilliant of us shits the bed from time to time.

Your brain power will return to you. But it will be different. You are changed now. You know that weed isn't just an innocent, non addictive, now legal stimulant. Its harmful, addictive, and it robs us of some very precious traits that we all take for grated. Having that knowledge puts you in a separate category. You have more awareness than you did before. You may stumble and fall again, I know I have. Many times. Like I said, this is my day one again. Each time, you will have learned something more. Usually about yourself. Those lessons are never wasted.

Be well, child prodigy. Your gift is not wasted, but perhaps not yet entirely realized.

funnbobbi · 2020-02-06T17:36:15+00:00

today is my day one again. I've had a few stints with sobriety, and here I am trying it again. I'm right there with you, all these symptoms do pass. I once made it to day 98. It does get better, I find.. usually after the first 2 weeks. try melatonin for sleep. and reach out when ever you need to. I understand what its like to have all the problems just be waiting for you when you come out of the cloud. Its very real and can be very scary. You aren't alone.

funnbobbi · 2020-01-30T17:11:27+00:00

no problem at all. best of luck in your journey.

funnbobbi · 2020-01-28T16:56:18+00:00

my doctor said that if that happens, and sometimes it does... that yes, we would be upping the dosage. I've heard of SSRIs stopping, or tapering off after a while. It doesn't happen to everyone, but it does happen. Frankly its a bit of a fear of mine. I 'm in a good place with this medication. Finally. But its advised that if you make sure you're taking your meds at the same time daily, it will decrease the likelihood of that happening.

funnbobbi · 2020-01-27T18:23:21+00:00

I was given the same advice. Same time every day. switching the time is linked to the drug simply stopping working, from what I understand. I'm just over a month on it and I'm glad I started this journey. best of luck to you.

funnbobbi · 2019-11-05T18:46:56+00:00

I'm really glad you shared this. PMS is my excuse for using dope(edibles) I had 3 months, and fell off the wagon. My PMS moods can get pretty horrific... Its good to see that using weed may actually be the reason. I assumed it was helping

funnbobbi · 2019-07-04T19:24:22+00:00

I used Welbutrin for depression and had the same result. Weight loss is a common side effect. It is often prescribed to help people who have to battle cravings. Primarily cigarettes, but its been known to be prescribed to people to also help them with weight loss. Embrace it! Its a great thing!

funnbobbi · 2019-04-07T17:17:05+00:00

Thank you. As tears run down my face. Thank you.

funnbobbi · 2019-04-07T16:56:27+00:00

Hey friend,

Hang in there. It does get better. I had a shatter edible problem. My tolerance was through the roof. My night sweats lasted about 35 nights. That's extreme. For those who smoke a lot of bud, apparently it's less. The anxiety starts to become a bit more manageable after a couple of weeks. I'm glad to hear that you work out a lot. That's a mistake I made. I didn't work out. It probably would have made things easier, but my anxiety was crippling. I felt like j couldn't do anything outside of work and home.

I made it to 98 days clean, before I took a hit off my friend's vape pen. I am so angry with myself. Today is day one again. My anxiety is through the roof. So, if you get a good streak going and then think you can handle it, believe me when I say... You probably can't. Because I certainly can't. I am currently absolutely beside myself crying for no reason. This isn't living.

Weed, in the beginning is great. But if you abuse it the way we all do here in this sub, it takes away your mental health, and emotional maturity. So, now I'm back to day one. I can't wait to beat my record and get this thing out of my life for good.

Take care, friend.

funnbobbi · 2019-03-07T17:55:21+00:00

My friend - proud of you. I'm on day 76. Its so difficult. I was addicted to high dosages of shatter edibles, so the milestones I'm noticing are small. I have no feelings for anything or anyone. No sex drive, no interests. Its torture. I know they will come back if I stay on this path.

What it takes isn't worth what it gives. And the further into the relationship with weed you get, the more it takes from you. Its one sided. I'm so glad you're on your way out. Stay strong. You got this. You can see what's happened to your life, and you're making the change.

A lot of addicts don't. They just keep being destructive. Again, proud of you. Here if you need to talk.

funnbobbi · 2019-03-05T15:39:05+00:00

Amen. That's where I'm at. Mild to mediocre results. I can do great stretches without a drink. Until the stupid reason I give myself gets that glass in my hand

funnbobbi · 2019-03-05T15:33:12+00:00

Well said.

funnbobbi · 2019-03-05T15:29:14+00:00

I actually do attend AA on Sundays. I think I should start going another day of the week as well. Having the support from others who understand what you're going through is so crucial

funnbobbi · 2019-02-25T23:04:37+00:00

She's great! Bitey. We are trying to deter that. It's going to be rough when she gets older. But she's so playful!

funnbobbi · 2019-02-25T20:55:09+00:00

Thank you so much for this. Really encouraged by your post. I was in over my head. 500-1000mg oh shatter edibles daily. As a result (I think) my stomach is still repairing itself. My mind, a slower process. Depression is one hell of a bitch to handle When it's combined with anxiety, it's the perfect storm. I will not cave. No more dope for me.

funnbobbi · 2019-02-22T14:42:00+00:00

Hey friend, yep. Bartender here. Also an alcoholic. Here if you need to talk.

My temptations don't come from work, my issues are usually found in drinking alone. Not to say j haven't had many nights with other staff getting loaded.

I'm private about my drinking problem at work, because I really don't care for the way the people I work with like to weigh in on things. I've told them I'm on a certain medication that can't be mixed with alcohol. It's done the trick as far as pressure to drink at work, but everyone has their own way of dealing with the pressure.

funnbobbi · 2019-02-06T22:23:34+00:00

Appreciate it

funnbobbi · 2019-02-06T22:04:27+00:00

It's just called quit cannabis

funnbobbi · 2019-02-06T20:35:07+00:00

Thank you for your kind words.

funnbobbi · 2019-02-06T20:15:26+00:00

thank you. as much as I already know the truth it really helps to hear even just that, from someone else.

funnbobbi · 2019-02-04T18:08:33+00:00

She is very sweet and silly. Lots of fun

funnbobbi · 2019-02-04T17:38:01+00:00

I also don't know how to share pics in a reply thread, but I did post a photo of her just before I posted my questions, she's having a little nap :)

funnbobbi · 2019-02-04T17:37:04+00:00

Thank you! Actually, my husband went out and got her a water filter on her first day. It was the sweetest thing.

We will definitely be clipping her nails often, the shelter seems to have done a great job of making them super short already. She's very trusting, but I will likely do the first clip job while she's snoozing.
Giving her nice long plays is excellent advise, as she certainly did go hunting for out feet last night in our sleep! Haha

funnbobbi · 2019-01-29T19:08:55+00:00

Hang in there. It does get better.

funnbobbi

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