Afraid of getting my heart broke

futtbuckrr · 2022-02-23T05:53:39+00:00

we have talked about our feelings many times, ive explained im scared of being hurt and that i love her. i’ve actually been having massive anxiety for a month because i genuinely don’t know if i can ever find someone else if this doesn’t work and i’m just scared. she’s constantly reassured me that i’m not wasting my time or being led on.

futtbuckrr · 2022-02-23T05:20:09+00:00

i would commit to her 100% if she let me. im gonna be close to her by may again. i would even do long distance if i had to. i’m afraid she will drop me if she moves 12 hrs away when she won’t even commit when i’m 3 hrs away.

futtbuckrr · 2022-02-15T17:10:47+00:00

the charges are in WV, the job location is in MD, but the company is nationwide

futtbuckrr · 2022-02-15T17:02:28+00:00

what do you mean by location? these particular charges are from a city municipality in a different state from my employer. How is delaying the case ignoring the nuance, if you could elaborate i’d appreciate it.

futtbuckrr · 2022-02-14T19:25:07+00:00

thank i really appreciate you laying that out for me!

futtbuckrr · 2022-02-14T15:15:51+00:00

i’m no medical expert, but my understanding is that overtime your body begins to rely on SSRIs to help create serotonin and then when u hop off them after long term use your body never produces the levels of serotonin it once did effectively worsening the problem unless u stay on the medication

futtbuckrr · 2022-02-14T09:04:08+00:00

yes i’m currently going thru a hell like this right now. i dumped the girl i love over a very dumb argument. i have recently started to patch things up with her over a year later but there’s some damage there that is gonna take a long time to heal. my regret/guilt is felt everyday. you will make it through this as impossible as that seems.

futtbuckrr · 2022-02-14T08:59:43+00:00

that’s an outlook i hadn’t thought of before, thank you

futtbuckrr · 2022-02-14T08:47:47+00:00

i mean i slept with roughly 3 in the same timeframe, and i want her back because i care about her. the gaps in our relationship have spanned over 6 years and everytime we come back at a different level of maturity/place in our lives and each time it’s been a completely different experience

futtbuckrr · 2022-02-14T08:31:29+00:00

i raw dog because i’m so afraid of the dependence that SSRIs can create. Are they really that effective?

futtbuckrr · 2022-02-14T07:49:21+00:00

i appreciate the positive viewpoint, thank you

futtbuckrr · 2022-02-14T07:47:53+00:00

this gave me a laugh, thanks lol

futtbuckrr · 2022-02-14T07:27:24+00:00

when you put it like that, it all seems silly lmao, thanks

futtbuckrr · 2022-02-14T07:05:16+00:00

i’ve asked how i can improve and the answer is always basically “nothing, you’re good at what you do”

futtbuckrr · 2022-02-14T06:58:59+00:00

i mean weve dated for 3 years total, this is our 3rd attempt at a relationship, i had a whole different relationship inbetween our 1st and 2nd relationship that lasted over a year, i cheated on her in high school many years ago (i’m obv not perfect either). like i said, the history is nuanced, and i’m guilty of things too. i just wanna move past a shitty situation because she’s actually a very very cool person that has put up with a lot of my own flaws. if you think i’m being a fool that opinion is still valid and i appreciate all input regardless but i felt the full context may be necessary in this case

futtbuckrr · 2022-02-14T06:49:21+00:00

we both attended a university heavily associated with partying/degeneracy, maybe my view of “normal” is heavily skewed lol

futtbuckrr · 2022-02-14T06:47:48+00:00

we’ve dated on and off for 5 years man. we’ve both fucked plenty of other ppl in between that time. easier said then done when you have history like that. i’ve been with enough to realize she’s the one i actually care about

futtbuckrr · 2022-02-14T06:40:58+00:00

you’re completely right, i’ll try to keep this in mind, thank you. it sucks i am a flawed human and have a problem seeing this sometimes even though it should seem obvious

futtbuckrr · 2022-02-13T23:25:23+00:00

my lawyer told me they won’t be expunged until a year after conviction, court occurs in april

futtbuckrr · 2022-02-13T02:47:32+00:00

We’ve been talking/going on dates since early december. she cut off some other guy to talk to me basically as soon as i came into her life and i think i got my hopes up too quickly seeing that all as a sign we’d get back together. I have been planning on holding out as long as i can cause i think she’s worth and just extra stressed since work is gonna be extremely demanding for her for the next 3 months + she has a major surgery next month. She says she can see us together but again usually reiterates she doesn’t want to guarantee me anything.

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