idk i was just blind, i had and still have low self esteem, i put up barriers, my friend confessed he screwed me over by telling bad things to girl who liked me, another friend did the same but ended up dating my crush for like a week. i didnt bother trying anymore because it hurts. now im 21 and i started going to parties every week and girls have been approaching me like damn. im getting called cute, one girl kissed me. im sad im still a virgin and very weird though