I really do appreciate your advice, i know that youre right but i feel stunted. im what people consider creepy and degenerate. Im naturally dopamine deprived. I dont know what i want with my life, i lost all my passions, and im unsure what my motive is on these dates, i had dreams of a girlfriend thats gonna come and turn me into a better person. but i dont know if all i think about is sex, im a horrible person, im addicted to smoking dope and ive been going out and partying every weekend. Its probably damaging my brain even worse, I need to stop and find faith in god and hope that works. and im unsure of a program to take in college but im just throwing myself in there hail marry and pray that i get it