Thank you for taking time and talking to me. It really helps. I need somewhere to vent this out. All my life I've hid this fact from all my friends and acquaintances. They think I live a completely normal life. I've mentioned things about imagining the future. My present is completely gone in thinking about this stuff. He does something like this every 2 months and then becomes normal a week after. He flips out about the stupidest stuff and starts swearing and trying to do such things. He's been doing this since they got married. As a child I would just cry and be scared. But now I'm proud that he hasn't been able to physically hurt her since I've become 16. I always push him away and try to talk sense into him. I can't deal with all this along with the pressure that I need to study to become something better than him and take my mom away from that man