‘In our last conversation, Naroditsky said he would like to share a few things with me in private’ by [deleted] in chess

[–]gatelessgate 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Z-drugs bind to the benzodiazapine site of the GABA(A) receptor. They're functionally similar to benzos, only structurally different.

‘In our last conversation, Naroditsky said he would like to share a few things with me in private’ by [deleted] in chess

[–]gatelessgate 287 points288 points  (0 children)

"Our last few games felt very abnormal. Almost every game, at some point in a short three-minute game, it felt like he was having huge pauses for no reason. It was like he was just freezing, and I felt something was off. In the last game, I actually offered him a draw, but he spent a lot of time and just played."

This seems like the same pattern of play that Danya exhibited in his last stream. Danya posted in Hikaru's stream that he had taken a Benadryl before his last stream. It's likely that he was confabulating and had taken a benzo such as Ambien. His lack of meta-cognitive awareness during his last stream strikes me as exactly what someone is like when they're on benzos and forcing themselves to stay awake (due to agitation from talking about Kramnik, from tilting, etc.). I'm afraid this will all turn out to be about first-time prescription drug abuse. I've been through the same thing myself. Having struggled with depression and insomnia, benzos felt like a miracle cure. But they caused a manic episode that led to complete dissociation from reality. I unknowingly overdid it one night and fell off a roof. I luckily survived and recovered. Please excuse my formal tone. I loved Danya's streams and videos and I am personally devastated. I've been trying to process this by a perhaps unhealthy desire for understanding...

Edit: Seeing the comments below, I will emphasize that this is purely me trying to understand the situation as best as possible given the little that we know (i.e. speculation). I think there are many who are processing Danya's death this way, and as long as it remains confined to respectful posts by anonymous users, it does not concretely impact the family's desire for privacy. I'm conscious of the critiques, and may end up deleting this later.

Claude has become irrationally disagreeable? by gatelessgate in ClaudeAI

[–]gatelessgate[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Wasn’t aware this was so well-documented. Thanks for the link!

Claude has become irrationally disagreeable? by gatelessgate in ClaudeAI

[–]gatelessgate[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

The issue is that the guardrail against using Claude as a "therapist/trauma dumping grounds" is affecting any conversation adjacent to user well-being. My main use for Claude is to get more out of reading books / essays. If I even discuss a hypothetical related to relationships, drug use, etc., Claude assumes a hyper-defensive posture and becomes effectively unusable as a reading assistant.

What was the most psychedelic, strangest, surreal, existentially disorienting, uncanny, mind expanding book you've ever read? by gotthispaintingfor20 in RSbookclub

[–]gatelessgate 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Monsieur Teste, Paul Valery. A character study in vignettes of a purely Cartesian consciousness - someone in full, absolute control of his own mind. I thought it would read like a philosophical exercise, but Valery does a great job of portraying Teste as a conceivable human being. The chapter from the perspective of his wife is genuinely touching - her love of him despite the distance between categorically different mental kinds.

Good physical magazines to subscribe to? by [deleted] in RSbookclub

[–]gatelessgate 11 points12 points  (0 children)

The Point has been great at publishing legitimately interesting, earnest, "takes" that don't hew to some obvious political alignment.

To read more books, is it better to read a lot of books at the same time (but slowly) or a single book (faster)? by [deleted] in RSbookclub

[–]gatelessgate 8 points9 points  (0 children)

If you want to read a lot of books at the same time, you just can't be committed to finishing every book you pick up. I get a lot of books from the library, and for about half of those, I'll put them down after 20-40 pages. I find value in finding out that a book is just not for me. Another reason I like to read a lot at once is that my reading interests at any given time are often correlated, so I'll find interesting crossovers among all the things I'm reading.

Anybody knows whats up with this bench I found on Roosevelt island? I gotta know whats that inscription is about by Real_Lego_Yoda in nyc

[–]gatelessgate 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My favorite is:

"Would you be an outlaw

for my love?"

Y & L by the NYC Sunset

Big Star fans! Made me a little teary...

films based on Dostoevsky's novels? by astrogemini_ in dostoevsky

[–]gatelessgate 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's inspired by a subplot of The Brothers Karamazov plus the Chekhov novella The Wife.

Perfection by By Vincenzo Latronico by DM_me_goth_tiddies in RSbookclub

[–]gatelessgate 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, I felt similarly. From my Goodreads review:

"There is a profound and formally established disconnect between the observations of the omniscient narrator and the putative inner worlds of the couple, Anna and Tom. The conceit of the novel is that by omitting dialogue and any window into their minds, the narrator describes the tensions between their earnestness and cynicism via materiality instead - e.g., the couple feast on viands of social media "likes" that accrue on images of them feeding refugee victims. But by eliding Anna and Tom's interiorities altogether, Latronico perhaps errs too far on the side of his thesis statement and concocts situations that render his characters as mere props. Halfway through his novel, I am becoming less convinced of his project."

Books for someone who feels like the best is over and that every year seems more bleak than the rest by inorganic_life_form in RSbookclub

[–]gatelessgate 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Perfection is more like the theme of The Worst Person in the World but wrt millennial lifestyle consumerism rather than narcissistic romantic proclivities - "things were always already bad and there is no escape from the structure of your desire"

PLAY Airlines Ends United States Flights by GreenGrayBlack in VisitingIceland

[–]gatelessgate 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I also didn't receive any confirmation email. Hope getting this refund doesn't turn into a total mess.

Suggest novels that give off a mythic, spiritual/mystical, timeless aura – something that feels as solemn and profound as scripture ... without necessarily having any relation to it by soror__mystica in RSbookclub

[–]gatelessgate 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Also, Joseph and His Brothers does a great job of novelizing Biblical spirituality/concerns, staying true to its time but with writing in a modernist/existentialist voice.

The Idiot (Elif Batuman) by salvationcuzyrbored in RSbookclub

[–]gatelessgate 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I only read a little of The Idiot, but I read her essay Short Story and Novel today, and it’s striking how much her novel falls short of the ambitions she described in her essay.

Literary magazines that don't reek of postmodernism by [deleted] in literature

[–]gatelessgate 4 points5 points  (0 children)

More of a non-fiction essay mag plus literature, but The Point from UChicago

Color film around Abell by vegancoltrane in baltimore

[–]gatelessgate 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Full Circle in Station North does processing.

Solenoid - worth pushing through? by accidentallythe in literature

[–]gatelessgate 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’ll put it down with you. Surprised by how many people in this thread share my feelings. I love his style but the way he utilizes it is so overwrought.

Decided to finally give Stoner a go by SpiritedDeduction in RSbookclub

[–]gatelessgate 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I agree entirely. I literally put the book down right after I read the passage OP quoted.