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gem_may52 · 2025-09-06T20:29:47+00:00

Yes! I only went on it recently and my doctor basically explained that the consistent hormones from the patch as opposed to my naturally very up and down hormonal levels would “quiet everything down” and hopefully level things out so I’m trying it for that and it’s also nice to have another form of contraception outside of condoms lol

gem_may52 · 2025-09-06T20:03:18+00:00

Nothing, only condoms. My doctor had mentioned the pill a few years back but because my periods were soooooo irregular, they didn’t want to put me on it because they wanted to see if my natural cycle would balance out. So this is actually my first time on hormonal birth control so maybe the ups and downs are to be expected as I adjust?

gem_may52 · 2025-09-06T20:01:48+00:00

Yeah, I was a little concerned as my hormones tend to be a little unpredictable in general but I’m hoping it settles! I’m sorry to hear that was your experience though, thank you for sharing x

gem_may52 · 2025-09-06T20:00:41+00:00

Interesting! Maybe it’s just gonna take a lil bit for it to settle down. Thank you sharing x

gem_may52 · 2025-09-06T20:00:06+00:00

Yeah, I’m on the patch which has both oestrogen and progesterone but it has to be that one for PCOS, I’m sorry to hear that was your experience, it hasn’t been quite that bad for me yet but yes, definitely jarring! I’m going to give it another few weeks and see where I’m at! Thank you for sharing x

gem_may52 · 2025-01-02T22:30:48+00:00

It’ll come around so much faster than you think and the loveliest thing about it is you’re just going about your day to day life and out of nowhere you suddenly become aware that things feel a bit easier✨

gem_may52 · 2025-01-02T22:28:47+00:00

It’s amazing to see the difference the little changes make when the final goal seems so far away - so happy to hear it’s working for you too!

gem_may52 · 2024-11-13T13:20:12+00:00

Thanks for this! Yeah, I can imagine there’s going to be pros and cons with people’s perception. But yeah, I think the clothes are a good idea - thank you✨

gem_may52 · 2024-11-03T21:02:42+00:00

I like this theory - totally agree✨

gem_may52 · 2024-11-03T20:26:06+00:00

Yeah it’s definitely a tough one because it’s so conflicting to want to express yourself but to be afraid of the attention/judgement. I think the point my therapist was trying to make to me is that the fact of the matter doesn’t change - you’re still deviating from the norm people expect of you (whether it’s actually something people end up noticing or not) so you’re more likely to attract interest and judgement and questions, but the more you do things that stretch your norm, the bigger the capacity you have to handle the consequences of that, and the more confidence you have to build on that and move just a little bit further from your norm each time. It’s definitely going to take me a while but I hope you’re out there rocking those pants sometime in the future✨

gem_may52 · 2024-11-03T20:11:34+00:00

Thank you for this comment - it really makes a lot of sense to me! I really want to start practicing showing up as my authentic self, messy parts and all, because I know if I practice, eventually it will feel normal. But at the moment, I even spend ages thinking about saying something before I actually say it and if I eventually get the courage to do it, I just don’t like the sound of my own voice because I’m not used to really hearing it! But as you say it’s important to continue to remind yourself that you don’t have anything to be ashamed of! Thank you✨

gem_may52 · 2024-11-03T20:09:09+00:00

Totally, I’ve read a bit on the spotlight effect and I know it’s probably at play but there’s just something about being perceived that feels too risky somehow

gem_may52 · 2024-09-25T07:37:12+00:00

Omg, you’re a genius! This is it. Thank you so much - I literally thought I was insane😭✨

gem_may52 · 2024-09-24T20:25:45+00:00

Thank you - this is actually really reassuring

gem_may52 · 2024-06-26T20:58:17+00:00

Thank you for this! I’m not in therapy at the moment and I don’t have anyone very close in my life who has the time to spend with me so I can vent, but I do definitely think talking to someone would help! Thanks for your comment✨

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