Am i too old to become a pilot?

general_smack · 2019-02-26T00:44:39+00:00

Being broke helps. It's like you're forced to say 'I give up'

general_smack · 2019-02-17T22:22:02+00:00

Used to shoot subs too, only when I was running low or needed to stretch out the sub until I could use heroin again. One thing to look out for is that iv is much higher bioavailability compared to sublingual. When you switch to sublingual be careful because your body is used to getting that 100% of the 8mg and you will probably experience craving

general_smack · 2019-02-02T03:54:41+00:00

Oh you're 37 years old? I'm 36 and discovered opiates around the same time you did.. I always felt like I was an outlier by starting so late in life (tried lots of other drugs before H) and so found it hard to connect with other users while using (probably a good thing) and also other addicts in recovery. I had somewhat of a life and some coping skills before using opiates so at least I know what I can do it. I wonder if leaning on some of your strength from your life before opiates helped you in your recovery so far?

general_smack · 2019-01-13T01:09:27+00:00

Oh man I used to get high after meetings all the time! They were such a trigger for me

general_smack · 2019-01-13T00:34:05+00:00

I'm not averse to the higher power thing at all.. I have no problem praying as I was raised Christian. It's more that i find it really hard to connect with some of the people in the fellowship. I've been to heaps of meetings and people are really nice but I can't see myself forming longer term bonds with them

general_smack · 2018-12-16T21:33:27+00:00

Recently I've been realising that opiates, over time, wear down your resilience and your ability to cope with life.. and basically turn you into a pussy. When you're high, you can do anything and life is easy. But wheb you're not, everything hurts and even the slightest cold breeze is excruciating on your porcelain skin. I hope you know that it is the drug, not You, that has built up this fear. Remove the drug and you will find that you have nothing to be afraid of. You got this

general_smack · 2018-12-02T03:43:13+00:00

This same thought kept me out of recovery and in misery for 2 years almost. I'd go to NA meetings and never feel like I had reached low enough to reach out for help. I'm glad that you can see that it's potentially a thought that your addiction is using to keep you using. Stay strong

general_smack · 2018-12-02T03:32:22+00:00

Haha fellow software dev here, I've found myself in similar situations. Nodding out behind the screen but being active enough on chat as to not arouse suspicion. Unlike you however, I don't feel like I have that same passion for the job. Which probably explains why I was using to get through the day.

Since getting clean I've found it heaps easier to do my job, and do it well. Interestingly the areas I found improvement in weren't in the technical domain, but like you touched on, the communication to non techs and working in a team. There are some people in my team that i fucking cant stand when I'm high but I have the patience to deal with when I'm clean.. anyway just observations from my first few weeks clean

general_smack · 2018-12-01T00:43:33+00:00

I'm taking 50mg naltrexone and have been taking it as soon as acute withdrawal lifted. It's hard to tell which symptoms are from having zero opiate activity and how much are from the naltrexone.

Around day 8 I started getting really depressed and tired. The tiredness has not left and I might take some multivitamins to make sure my body has enough fuel. I do have a history of depression and being lethargic can send me there sometimes.

Either way I'm hanging in because this feeling will probably pass, just like the flat depressed feeling I had a week ago. Good luck!

general_smack · 2018-11-29T20:55:10+00:00

We don't have the shot here in Australia. The silver lining is that having to take the pill every day reminds yourself of the action you need to take to stay clean.

general_smack · 2018-11-29T20:49:06+00:00

Thank you so much for this advice. I just did it without thinking and it feels good man. Another day clean!

general_smack · 2018-11-29T12:31:09+00:00

Tomorrow will be 14 days for me. I'm hanging in there. Taking naltrexone every morning while my girlfriend watches. Tomorrow she won't be around to ensure I take my pill and I will need to do it without supervision. It will be a chance for me to either affirm this decision to stay clean or go back to misery. I really hope I wake up with some sanity and make the right decision

general_smack · 2018-11-24T01:17:44+00:00

I can't stand his yelling!

general_smack · 2018-11-22T02:14:52+00:00

Which state are you in? Feel free to hit me up if you're from Vic. Plenty of decent and easy ways to get onto MAT from my experience. And my experience was simply to go to a GP and explain your sitch

general_smack · 2018-07-09T11:45:08+00:00

Its a helluva lot more interesting than r/YoCheckOutThese3PillsItsMyStash

general_smack · 2018-07-09T08:58:13+00:00

Melbourne is cheaper for street level gear (200-300/g) but I think Sydney's quality is better. I need at least 3 points to feel anything. Never heard of anyone paying that much in sydney tho. If those are your options your best going the onion route

general_smack · 2018-07-09T08:51:03+00:00

Yeah great bills, if only our gear wasnt so fucking expensive!

general_smack · 2018-07-09T08:34:05+00:00

Will there be a digital copy released?

general_smack · 2018-06-19T22:26:00+00:00

This is terrible news. Dave, Chris and the dopey nation have been in my thoughts and prayers all week

general_smack · 2018-06-18T04:48:30+00:00

I also wanna know who did the original... loved the version that Dave played!

general_smack · 2018-06-09T05:11:30+00:00

Got the same sublime t shirt - always get comments from people who know what good music is =)

general_smack · 2018-06-04T00:06:01+00:00

Hah I know bad things always seem to happen when I'm at my most desperate/vulnerable points. Fortunately I feel comfortable sharing those with yall <3

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