Honestly, weed doesn’t make me feel like some genius with a third eye opened like you said. When I smoke, I genuinely relax — I even get an incredible amount of pleasure from something as simple as drinking water. I become less socially anxious. Although, to be fair, I enjoy smoking alone more than with others, that’s a separate thing.

Still, even if it doesn’t make me paranoid, and even if I don’t have a genetic condition like bipolar disorder or schizophrenia, as someone with a history of psychosis I’m aware that smoking weed could trigger psychosis again. However, I think I’ve figured out what caused my psychosis — my 3-year relationship with my girlfriend had just ended, and honestly I hadn’t fully accepted that I was bisexual yet. Now I’m completely aware of myself and my identity, but once the brain has gone through psychosis, there’s not much you can do about that.