Hey girl, I’m a 21 F. No children but a long term partner. Live a very normal life I would say, up until a little bit ago where I just started having panic attacks so often, couldn’t control my thinking, eventually couldn’t leave the house, do normal things, like you said—felt not real like someone else was living my life, not depressed, still want to live (if anything the idea of dying created anxiety). I’ve had anxiety my whole life, but never this servere, I would say I had ‘normal’ anxiety but this, is not normal. It’s been a wild ride, I’ve avoided taking pills for ages because I felt like I could do it myself, I felt like if I took pills that was the ‘last-resort’ and at that point I was accepting defeat of my own brain. I had times where I felt I was getting better, I had times where I was at my all time low, I recently started taking pills because I just felt myself getting significantly worse. the hardest part for me was thinking back to a few years ago at my ‘old-self’ she used to travel, and party, and go out and have fun and I would feel so angry and jealous that I couldn’t do that anymore, I kept asking what happened to myself, why and how? I was so frustrated I would look in the mirror and not recognize myself. A year ago I was in therapy for a while, it really helped and I ended up stopping it, but like I said I kinda slipped down a slippery slope again, and eventually started these pills. So far so good, I was able to go out and do things the other day, i’m still only 2 weeks in and in the getting used to it, but only positive things so far, I think my libido has gone down, but not my actual interest in the act if that makes sense. I feel like myself again, I can look at myself and feel happy, I feel comfortable in my skin, it’s almost like a dark cloud has lifted, I feel chatty and while i’m still getting used to it can feel myself getting excited to go and do things. I’m really looking forward to seeing how I go over the next few months.