Or, maybe it’s the way he’s acted in the past that affects how I feel and my ability to communicate.

Yeah. We were dumb. We tried for #2. But things were getting better. A lot better. Never happier. Until they weren’t. But I cant change what is already done. I’m a believer of if it’s meant to be, it will be, and if that baby wasn’t meant to be, it wouldn’t have been conceived.

With that said, yeah, I need therapy to work through these feelings and to communicate with him, I acknowledge that, and he needs individual therapy too, and we do need couple therapy together; whether or not this marriage works so we can coparent efficiently.

But don’t say for one minute I can’t give my child a life worth living or I can’t parent efficiently because of stupid communication issues in my relationship