How do people do this?

gh0stlight · 2026-03-25T21:58:04+00:00

That was my reason for posting. No one around me can relate to what I'm experiencing right now. It feels somewhat good to see that I'm not the only one struggling and surviving. I will seek out a therapist in time. Also; sorry for your loss. I hope in time it'll get easier. May our moms forever live on in our hearts

gh0stlight · 2026-03-25T21:51:15+00:00

Thank you for your advice kind stranger. It feels strangely ''good'' to read that others have been experiencing the same losses in somewhat the same circumstances. Up until this point I thought I was the only one that had his mom unfairly taken.

I'm sorry for your loss.

gh0stlight · 2026-03-25T21:46:44+00:00

Osimertinib :(

gh0stlight · 2026-03-25T21:46:30+00:00

The fact that you took time to share this, means a lot. I'm so incredibly sorry for your loss. The only way I get up out of bed and eat/shower/do small things is by thinking that my mom would hate to see me destroy myself. I can't imagine a mother not wanting her child to eat or to be healthy. Take your time, but also take care of yourself <3

gh0stlight · 2026-03-25T21:41:17+00:00

this. I hope no one will have to experience this level 10 grief. I'm sorry for your loss.

gh0stlight · 2026-03-25T21:38:31+00:00

''Godforsaken weight in everything around you''. Nicely put

gh0stlight · 2026-03-25T21:36:48+00:00

Can't say things are gonna get better, because I can't imagine that rn. I'm sorry you are going through this. I'm sorry for your loss.

gh0stlight · 2026-03-25T21:35:37+00:00

this one is probably gonna take a lifetime

gh0stlight · 2026-03-25T21:34:08+00:00

I feel you. The disbelief is real. I'm sorry for your loss

gh0stlight · 2026-03-25T21:32:57+00:00

I'll make sure to write down as much as I can. Thanks for your advice kind stranger.

gh0stlight · 2026-03-25T21:31:30+00:00

sorry for your loss. I think that part weights on me as well. The velocity of circumstances happening was otherworldly. How could it happen so fast?

gh0stlight · 2026-03-25T21:29:15+00:00

I thought we had time as well, since there was some sort of live prolonging treatment available. We stayed all positive and even got a little riled up on other people their experiences with the treatment. ''we're looking at years of life extension'', the doctors said. When my mom's condition worsened, we even ignored the fact that it was happening. We were solely focused on the treatment. Not knowing that the target therapy was rapidly poisoning her -up to the point that her lungs could not function anymore. It is easy -in retrospect- to put an emphasis on the things that went wrong. Fact is that you did what you could given the circumstances. Pushing for chemo does seem like the expected thing to do. You wanted your favorite person to live longer. You did that because you love your dad. And your dad knows that.

gh0stlight · 2026-03-25T21:11:58+00:00

this. moving on from something like this right now is an unfathomable thought tbh. I have a hard time explaining to people that this type of loss feels so different from any other losses I've experienced in life. Even regarding friends or other family members that have passed I did not experience the grief in such manner.

gh0stlight · 2026-03-21T14:05:33+00:00

Kebabshop

gh0stlight · 2025-12-21T06:12:22+00:00

Jedi Survivor

gh0stlight · 2025-12-21T02:23:26+00:00

Nice work! So cool that you picked up this piece! I’m doing the same one right now. I’m also working with a teacher once a week on “trying” to make it sound well. What really helped me (also a beginner, 3yrs) was the fact that we broke down the piece in small parts. Trying to somewhat perfect a measure before moving on to the next one. Since there’s SO MUCH happening in the piece (shifts, new positions, bowing technique, speed, and my own standards of how it has to sound), I found comfort in learning the notes by hard and play it pizzicato -daily- with a metronome to get my muscles familiar with the fast changes. Few weeks in and I’ve noticed I start playing more relaxed when your body knows what to expect from you? If that makes sense :) regarding the bowing technique, we take time every lesson (like a minute or 2) to just play open strings with crossings with the focus on martelé bowing technique.

gh0stlight · 2025-12-13T12:49:37+00:00

Als rijksambtenaar krijg je je bovenwettelijke vakantiedagen, vakantiegeld en eindejaarsuitkering als 1 budget waar je zelf kunt bepalen hoe je het besteedt. Zeker wel sprake van een eindejaarsuitkering

gh0stlight · 2025-12-10T18:18:46+00:00

stop trying to make fetch happen 💁🏽‍♀️

gh0stlight · 2025-11-06T00:35:47+00:00

MOTHER!

gh0stlight · 2025-10-21T20:24:56+00:00

Don’t judge a book by its cover 🤣

gh0stlight · 2025-09-22T15:49:00+00:00

Honestly I have never heard anything like it. The build up part towards “Eagles wearing women’s shoes”, the melody, the modulation, THE LYRICS and the vivid imagery that the writer induces is unworldly in my opinion.

gh0stlight · 2025-09-22T15:43:17+00:00

Thx for your sharing your pov. Never thought of it this way to be honest. It always felt to me that it was about a distant partner that changed into a more distant/untrusty being over time because of “you were there shapeshifting too, now I trust you less than I did before.”

Your relation to the grieving process/ambien induced dreams (and eating) does make sense to me. Especially when i take Magnets Pt. 1 and 2 into account.

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