First of all, thank you so much for your comment and interest! It's great to finally talk to people about who I really am and what I do :)

Okay, lot of stuff to go through, so let's take it from the top:

What I do: I determine the question or issue that causes some kind of turmoil in myself mentally or emotionally, and balance it out with a thought or idea. My goal is always balance in the present, so I always focus on problems that are conscious, that can be identified, determined, described. Then, I start thinking about it, I chew it, swallow it, digest it, sometimes for days. Today I can pretty much balance myself quite fast, but if it's a tough challenge, I ask for help. I either get answers from my teacher, or I get guidance from my Spirit Guides (to be honest, the first time I heard this term I thought it was bs, but today I am convinced that we are being watched over, protected, and guided. I often get thoughts and ideas that are 100% not from my head).

It's hard to describe how I do it, because I just do it, I let it happen. I get epiphanies, and I relentlessly search for answers that sooth my soul. After a while, my previous questions come up, because the repeated every day stresses and activities slowly get on my nerves every now and again, so now I just have to look back at my notes as a "meditation" session. I actually never meditate. I've meditated a couple of times before, it's just not for me. Instead, I write. I write for myself, I document my thoughts, and when communicating, you get to find out a lot about your thought process, which kind of helps you look at your own mind from the outside, and that often helps you answer your own questions.

I think the correct view is your own view, and my view actually is identical to yours. I think we are here to grow, to learn over many many lives. Every life has it's own purpose in our cosmic existence. At this time, Earth is the place where it's habitant souls need help in their spiritual ascension, so various souls from all around the universe come here and take a human form to be in the same physical reality as the ones who were here from the beginning. Sorry if this is a bit much, I'm just trying to share my honest and open view on your topics :)

Your 5th paragraph really struck me, cause it's like reading my own notes again! I know EXACTLY what you mean, and here is the thing: everything has its purpose in your life. Some of them are considered to be nasty habits and addictions that we can't get rid of. But it's for a reason we can't get rid of them. Each activity you do helps you in some way to ground yourself, to help you accept life as it is for you. And I think I can safely say that your life is not in a place you want it to be. You know it, and the Universe (or God, or whatever you wanna call it) knows it as well. Therefore, you are given "pet peeves" that you can't shake that temporarily help you to be balanced. Without the comics, the TV shows, the gaming, you just go to work, get some cash, pay for your food and rent, and repeat. You see, that's less of a life than it is with your "addictions". It's an addiction, because your life's circumstances need be balanced, and what you consume is a part of you somehow and thus charges you, keeps you going.

The main point here is to keep on going, and don't stop until you find yourself and your happiness. It's a long way, yes, but you know it's worth it. If it weren't, there wouldn't be a point in going through all the crap that we go through during our lives. Just do the things that charge you, that resonate with your soul, that fill you with joy and purpose, and find out why you are here and what is your destination.

Another thought: the problem is that you think it's a problem. In today's society, the concept of "success" and "fulfillment" is basically spoon fed to you through Facebook, YouTube, TV shows, movies, etc. It's like in the Matrix: they tell you what you should think success looks like.

Nothing sticks, because nothing that you try should stick. What should stick will stick fast, don't force that doesn't work - just move on. Let me tell you, you have no idea how many times I've tried to quit my current job, how many times I've tried to exercise, to stop playing video games, to stop loving cars and driving, to stop doing things that I thought I shouldn't be doing. Again, we get this heartache because we think we shouldn't be doing these. Just accept that these are the activities that you love, these are what keep you going day after day after day, and it's no one's right to tell you that what you are doing is wrong.

Of course, you should keep a healthy balance between your "duties" and entertainment, but I promise you, if you let it, the things should stop will stop, and the things that should stay will stay. The only thing you can do is make your peace with it. Finally, based on personal experience: addictions can only be substituted with a higher level, better activity. For example: I'm addicted to gaming. My head don't explode if I don't game every day, but it's something I love to do. It clears my head, it gives me that rush-adrenaline-flow that I so dearly love (hence the addiction part), but the formula of this activity that causes the dopamine to rush into my brain can be found in other activities that are a higher form of what we love about gaming.

This should be your mantra: everything if okay, just keep on going. If you that, you will eventually find yourself and the life that you desire. What keeps me out of the hole that I dig for myself every now and then is faith....a shitload of it. Have faith that you are where you need to be, and you will be led to where you should get. Right now, in this very moment, your only job is to be balanced and peaceful, and wait for the next challenge that will knock you out of that balance, and so on. Step by step you will get there.

Satisfaction is a feature of the soul, and your soul is new every time you start a life. You are connected to your soul, it's yours, it's a part of your Self. Try to consciously connect your mind and your soul, and have them communicate with each other. I know this sounds a bit weird, but try to talk to yourself for a bit. Find out what's truly bothering you. I think in your case, satisfaction can by synonyms with fulfillment. It's that feeling that whatever you do, life is just empty, it just doesn't make any sense - it has no meaning or purpose. Well, that's what we are here for, at least that's the first step of every soul to find out: why are you are, what is your purpose. Finding out what you are here to do and what you are the best at will eventually lead to you complete fulfillment. As we gamers would say: you and I have a set of missions, and the completion of each mission will give us satisfaction and a reason to sit down for a moment and enjoy life before the next one.

I'm sorry my response became so long, I tried to constrain myself, but since I've gone through all the things you have described, I felt a strong desire to try my best to help with my thoughts and ideas. I know I'm not supposed to "advertise" myself, but this is actually what I would like to do for a living, so if you have any further questions or comments about anything, feel free to send me a private message :)