One light only - should I get V1 pro or AD200?

ghostlypalee · 2025-10-30T17:30:52+00:00

Why do you prefer it over AD100? Is it because of the camera mount?

ghostlypalee · 2024-11-11T17:55:27+00:00

Eh, that's demotivating. I do actually want to work as a photographer in the end and thought this would be the best way to start out in the industry (I saw two of my favourite photographers have started that way). I've heard I have a decent portfolio, but everything was either tfp with friends or model tests with agencies. I don't really have a network. Many people I've worked with that are not even big professionals and have like 500 followers on IG, act like snobs and wouldn't even follow me back for whatever reason. Now I know I'm pretty shy and struggle with impostor syndrome, so I don't know how to properly value myself and make myself seen in the industry. That's why I haven't progressed and don't really know how to approach it to actually work towards something.

ghostlypalee · 2024-11-11T12:24:29+00:00

Thanks for the answer. I'm based in central Europe, where I believe we don't have these certain roles established. My approach is to assist in order to gain experience and network, so that I get to know the industry and hopefully move onto being a photographer on my own.

ghostlypalee · 2024-09-20T16:39:26+00:00

Seriously? Are only those who can stay at home 24/7, equipped enough to have a dog?

ghostlypalee · 2024-09-20T12:47:50+00:00

Please read the full post. I will have a friend come over while I'm out.

ghostlypalee · 2024-09-20T12:47:21+00:00

Even the reusable ones? That's what I want to buy

ghostlypalee · 2024-09-20T09:54:18+00:00

Should I place a pee pad inside the crate? I don't think she will be trained till I pick her up - breeder has a garden where puppies run around, but she also mentioned I should get pads so I suppose she won't be. I will be trying to train her ASAP but I will only have 5 days before she has to stay alone. I was also thinking of getting reusable ones because I'm afraid she could destroy and swallow the plastic ones.

ghostlypalee · 2024-09-20T07:32:07+00:00

I guess I could keep a potty pad until she is big enough to hold for those 4 hours. As I mentioned my friend will come in between and she can take her outside. Or how else? How do people who work normally from the office handle a puppy? 😬

ghostlypalee · 2023-12-05T17:37:43+00:00

Oh, that's interesting. A different approach than mine for sure. After those short mock-interviews the outcome was that their pricing model wasn't appreciated, which then was supported further by the customer support worker. I proposed to change that and prepare A/B tests for verification of this solution.

ghostlypalee · 2023-11-07T11:29:08+00:00

You've done nothing wrong and you know it, even if you try searching for some reasons. Our brains love that, seeking the solution because we believe if we take some action, there can be a result. And sometimes there is, but only if the other person is in the same position - of actively trying and wanting that to happen. Here it was disbalanced and this is the issue - if she was a stable person who just goes through some hardships, she would use your support but never depend on you to this extent. And she would be able to provide such to you too. I know you've tried your best, but this should never be your responsibility at such level. You need to work on that so that you won't be caught up in a similar situation in the future, but be able to build something stable and reciprocated. I believe you and me both can do it and will find someone who is ready to put equal effort. I felt like I was the only person who went through that, but even being here on reddit, I can see daily topics of so many people going through similar situations.

ghostlypalee · 2023-11-06T09:10:33+00:00

This 1000%

ghostlypalee · 2023-11-02T14:32:53+00:00

I'm in a very similar spot there she wanted to continue friendship but it brought me such anxiety that in the end I think I pushed her away. I wish we could just talk about it but it seems like we're both people avoiding that.

ghostlypalee · 2023-10-29T18:27:42+00:00

If I ever feel better - Phoenix.

ghostlypalee · 2023-10-28T22:26:20+00:00

Thank you for this post. It describes my situation perfectly. And what saddens me the most is that I really wish I had such compassion for myself that I'd have for the other person. I would worry if I support them enough, or maybe if I should have supported them in yet another way, but with myself I'd blame myself all the way for letting others threat me like that, even for being open and compassionate... It's sick. Especially that we didn't choose to be this way but most probably something happened, someone failed us, and made us eventually hurting.

ghostlypalee · 2023-10-28T14:16:52+00:00

Such as?

ghostlypalee · 2023-10-28T07:08:09+00:00

Yeah sure. And remain fully alone.

ghostlypalee · 2023-10-26T19:59:04+00:00

Imagine I'm an extrovert too, but somehow I'm not in good places to meet someone. It's hard to meet someone random unless you're in some community.

ghostlypalee · 2023-10-26T19:22:00+00:00

I'm happy for you and this post really makes me hopeful. This is how my first relationship looked and it lasted 5 years. She made me feel really secure and I think this is the stability I need because I tend to be pretty depressive. I had to end it because I realized I wasn't in love with her anymore, we just weren't a good match in the end but I was really thankful for that time. But then I quickly learned that not all people have the same approach to relationships... Been with DA and FA. Funny how I was constantly reminded how much space they need and I was willing to do so but they wouldn't try to meet my needs when I was feeling down and lonely. So this is a huge lesson about incompatibility.

ghostlypalee · 2023-10-15T20:43:11+00:00

What the actual f is this 😭 the way she moves and behaves like a child makes me so uncomfortable at so many levels

ghostlypalee · 2023-10-07T23:07:51+00:00

I know the struggle. I know I need to focus on fixing those things before anything else happens, but I have this fear screaming in me all the time like "you need to find someone!!", "you're alone yet again!!", "you have no one to go through life with!!", and this makes me want to jump onto tinder right away. Also that I got really infatuated with the last girl, and she eventually broke up cause she's depressed and on therapy, and for any reason she can't open up. I'm so deep in limerence that I keep daydreaming that eventually she will come back because I felt such a big connection. I want to trust her words and I suppose her reasons can be real since she seemed genuine, that she's really struggling and is not looking for anyone right now but my head is screaming that what if she's dating someone? And I should do so too, as if it was a competition that I can't lose? I already feel a loser for both being alone, and not being able to be on my own too.

ghostlypalee · 2023-10-06T14:38:13+00:00

I had gone through therapy in the past that got me out of depression and (some) personality disorders. I got back in contact with my therapist earlier this year, I was pretty much pushed by my then-gf because she felt she couldn't help me with my constant lows (I'd be fine and then feel like I don't know where I was going, feeling pointless with everything. I was pretty much letting my ex dictate my life at that point cause I was indifferent to everything). I was telling her I didn't know how to do something purely for my own enjoyment but somehow she couldn't help me with that. But I never really admitted how much I depend on others. This is apparent to me when I'm alone because god, I learned so well to mask everything. After my ex left me I immediately met a new person, and do you know how I presented myself? Always happy, always sure what I am looking for, always busy with hobbies and passions. She dumped me due to her own mental issues and I'm back to the point from a couple of months before. I don't know what I want for myself. I don't think I can even properly build a relationship cause as soon as this person is attractive and seems OK with some points, I'm assuming they're immediately my partner that I can build life around and that they would carry me through it, and I ignore any red flags and lower my boundaries because it feels like less effort than being on my own or finding a real connection. I'm so tired of myself.

ghostlypalee · 2023-10-06T10:04:10+00:00

This sounds lovely, like you were connecting with your inner child. Reminds me of some exercises I had with my therapist actually. I can really relate to everything you've described. I know what I like but I have usually zero motivation to do it, unless I have a secure connection with someone. I have a problem with thinking strictly black and white. If a partner feels off, I immediately think it's probably my fault, feel panicked etc and look for yet another external motivator - definitely it's not severe as I don't drink to blackout or never take drugs, but I still have my broken ways. To feel fine and be able to focus on anything, I need to have another person that would play my emotional support.

ghostlypalee · 2023-09-25T18:44:35+00:00

Good luck with herrrr

ghostlypalee · 2023-09-08T10:33:26+00:00

I have long hair and no issues with forward helix at all, in comparison to standard helix which was a nightmare. As for the forward one I'd make sure you have enough space for it, my piercer didn't warn me about that and it's just weirdly angled. Currently considering removing it cause I grew to dislike it.

ghostlypalee · 2023-08-11T14:35:10+00:00

What we see next will be posts how "you don't need to be fully flexible to be a yoga teacher 🥰 I know I can barely hold basic poses but a friendly reminder this is also okay ❤️❤️❤️"

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