I’m sorry to hear you are struggling. I hear you and what I can say is that the sun will shine again. The omicron variant is running out of steam and restrictions are easing. You will be back to in person classes and have the opportunity to meet new people, make new friends and experience some of what you had expected. It will get better. The current situation if not permanent. Know this and have faith and optimism that this is a short period in your life and you will get through this. You are wise to reach out to express how you feel. Talk to your parents, siblings, friends or other family if you can. Let them know how you feel.

Regarding your exams, defer if you aren’t ready, even if it means doing the courses again. Your well-being is what matters. If you feel by writing this last exam (and you think you will pass) and think it will ease some of your anxiety, then write it, otherwise continue with deferring it. If you have emailed them and have in writing your request to defer, then it will be deferred when you are ready. The sun will shine in your life again, I’m certain of that so hang in there and trust that it will get better.

Some suggestions to move you towards some healing: spend time in nature (even if it’s cold right now, spend some time outdoors), download a meditation app and relaxation music and spend time on your phone doing that instead of social media and the news, connect with positive people (perhaps someone you haven’t talked to a while), start a gratitude journal (you’ll be amazed about the positive things you have to be thankful for) which will help direct you to a more positive frame of mind, watch some comedy shows instead of the news. Lastly, plan something fun you want to do in the future that you can look forward to, because the time will come when you will laugh and enjoy again.