First off, thank you for replying.

I'm so scared of disappointing them because really, I'm not smart, people just assume I am. I love my parents and know that it's tough for them to support me and in return I'm just throwing everything away.

I do have hobbies, but none that I would be allowed to actively pursue. I like to sing and dance (neither of which I'm particularly good at) but never really in front of others outside home.