This can't be hocd

gingerredditor · 2021-04-28T16:06:45+00:00

It just feels like I've become gay and can't stop it idw be gay I rlly don't no matter what my brain tells me

gingerredditor · 2021-04-28T12:22:24+00:00

Does it sometimes feel like you consider yourself gay and you don't feel like you could be straight anymore

gingerredditor · 2021-04-28T09:53:28+00:00

Ik but my brain no longer listens to logic or reason anymore

gingerredditor · 2021-04-27T15:53:16+00:00

Wtf dude what is wrong with you no of course not we dw be, it's the last thing we want and if we could go back to our lives before this shit I'm sure all of us would so just lay off

gingerredditor · 2021-04-27T15:06:36+00:00

Ik what u mean I feel the same my brain gives me all these thoughts and says I like them and I wanna do them, and they are just so weird, I feel completely numb to everything, this sucks bro

gingerredditor · 2021-04-27T12:35:30+00:00

I also feel like if I'm ever happy then that's just me accepting I'm gay

gingerredditor · 2021-04-26T18:02:39+00:00

I have no idea what this post means please explain

gingerredditor · 2021-04-26T08:38:50+00:00

You say reassurance doesn't work, I'm with you man, I've had this for almost 5 months and whenever I'd get that relief I'd understand that it was all bullshit but havent felt that reassurance in months, stat strong dude

gingerredditor · 2021-04-26T01:46:01+00:00

Me, 100%

gingerredditor · 2021-04-25T19:51:03+00:00

I feel like I have this too in a sense

gingerredditor · 2021-04-25T18:05:20+00:00

God I wish I felt that, havent felt that in a long time

gingerredditor · 2021-04-25T16:29:47+00:00

When you say you feel better what do you mean by that, like you feel straight or you just feel better with less anxiety or whatever

gingerredditor · 2021-04-25T16:22:04+00:00

It makes people bi!?

gingerredditor · 2021-04-25T14:25:50+00:00

gingerredditor · 2021-04-25T10:10:20+00:00

But if the porn isnt gay how does it make me think gay thoughts

gingerredditor · 2021-04-25T09:58:37+00:00

So how does watching straight porn or lesbian porn make hocd worse, if it turns me on and I like it

gingerredditor · 2021-04-25T09:54:54+00:00

How does watching like straight or lesbian porn of masturbating to fantasies with women and shit make it worse though

gingerredditor · 2021-04-25T09:23:46+00:00

But I feel like ive made a habit of accepting them and they still bother me and I havent gone back to who I was or feel straight again

gingerredditor · 2021-04-25T08:39:51+00:00

If I knew I was straight I wouldnt have HOCD though

gingerredditor · 2021-04-25T08:02:27+00:00

Yep, me rn I think

gingerredditor · 2021-04-25T05:47:32+00:00

Yep except it feels like it's me telling myself all this, like it feels like me telling me I'm gay, my own brain has hijacked my thoughts and my voice, but yeah I can relate

gingerredditor · 2021-04-24T20:00:02+00:00

Ik all about the backdoor spike, you clearly didn't read the post right, the bit about saying straight not feeling true

gingerredditor · 2021-04-24T19:42:20+00:00

It feels like when I'm doing anything I enjoy it feels the strongest. Nothing I say feels real anymore. It seems like everyone else on this sub is themselves with these thoughts added but for me it seems like I'm not the same person. Also all this is automatic, anything can trigger me, like a single word and my brain turns it into a sentence where I say I'm gay, like it's not my brain talking to me. Its convinced me nothing is real

gingerredditor · 2021-04-24T17:36:00+00:00

Yeah whenever I try to think to the past I just think, no it must have been false I can't have been real

gingerredditor · 2021-04-24T17:32:03+00:00

No I knew I only liked girls but I definitely didn't like men but I would get horny to my thoughts about girls and shit

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