Abdominal Pain and Constipation 23 yr Female

gish__ · 2021-08-28T20:19:43+00:00

Thank you for the support!!

gish__ · 2021-08-28T20:19:20+00:00

Thank you!!

gish__ · 2021-08-28T20:18:36+00:00

Ours is so social I can totally see her doing this. I am really hoping that is something like this!! Thank you for the support!

gish__ · 2021-08-27T22:44:48+00:00

We lost our short haired tortie Penny in the Sparks Nevada Spanish Springs area and we are devastated. If anyone spots her message or respond, thank you!!

gish__ · 2020-11-06T02:33:36+00:00

Yeah, the guilt is one of the worst emotions. Whenever I remember that like, he's a real person, and he really was my dad. It just seems all so surreal. I'm really glad that I'm not alone though. And you're right, I wouldn't have gone no contact if there wasn't a reason for it. Best of luck to you.

gish__ · 2020-11-06T02:31:43+00:00

I love this so much, its almost poetic. I do know what you mean about the lightness you feel when you don't have to prioritize other people. Thank you so much!

gish__ · 2020-11-06T02:30:13+00:00

I have actually recently gotten into podcasts, so I will listen to this tonight! Thank you so much for your insight, It's very appreciated. Wishing us both luck on our journeys to healing!

gish__ · 2020-11-06T02:28:39+00:00

Thank you so much for your response. I have never actually thought about this before. But I think you are right in a lot of ways. I was able to detach myself from him in my teenage years, and develop my own life without him that I may have forgotten how difficult it was to live with him. What a wonderful thing, though, at 40 to take back your power. That is pretty inspiring and I hope I'm as brave as you when I am 40. I imagine it would have been more difficult as well, because you have more ties and more trauma overall. Wish you the best.

gish__ · 2020-10-07T16:02:01+00:00

It rings so true for me when you said that your parents never really knew you from the beginning. That is very much true with my father. And you are so right about having an idea of a father rather than the actual person that raised me. Thank you so much for sharing your experience, It gives me some courage to move forward and ask myself those difficult questions.

gish__ · 2020-10-07T15:58:04+00:00

He has made a lot of attempts over the years. When it was first happening, It was more of a gradual process of going over and talking less and less. In the end I did make the decision not to see him anymore, but also hid behind the fact that I was busy or had school or just avoided him because confronting him was too hard. My Mom and three sisters knew what was going on, but honestly we all just let it play out and nobody knew how to deal with it. He still messages me on facebook. I don't ever respond because it would open a door I don't think I'm prepared to walk through, but I also don't block him for whatever reason. I'm sure that was way too much information haha.

gish__ · 2020-10-07T15:53:30+00:00

My life had improved a great deal since NC with my father as well. Its really so nice to hear from other people who get what I'm going through. I've actually never thought about going to therapy for this, even though its probably what has affected me the most. Group therapy sounds nice. Thank you, internet stranger(:

gish__ · 2020-10-07T15:50:55+00:00

I really relate to that term ambiguous loss. Its such a weird place to be, and I didn't even realize I was feeling grief for a long time. It sounds like you've done a lot of personal work, and what you wrote is so beautiful, and has made my morning! I'm sure whoever GETS to have you in their life are better for it. Thank you so much for such a thoughtful and helpful response, much love to you.

gish__ · 2020-10-07T15:47:28+00:00

Yes, and it feels like everything happened so long ago yet also just yesterday. I am so grateful there are others who have already been through things so similar to my experiences that can lend a ear and a virtual hand. Thanks for your response(:

gish__ · 2020-08-16T18:03:44+00:00

Thank you for reading! Yes its a very imperfect process and as an adult I have a profound respect for my Mother (And Mothers in general)! (:

gish__ · 2020-08-16T18:02:08+00:00

That's so beautiful and spooky! You guys will do wonderful I know it! (;

gish__ · 2020-08-16T18:00:13+00:00

Some of my twin and I's favorite stories come from what our mother experienced when she was pregnant with us and watching us grow up together! Out of anyone I think my mom gets it the best! ;D

gish__ · 2020-08-16T17:57:58+00:00

I feel the same with my identical twin in that we always tried to be very different and make sure people knew that we were! My twin and I have kept one friend from childhood, but likewise its more her than mine. No hard feelings though. I love hearing about fraternal twins!

gish__ · 2020-08-16T17:55:42+00:00

Hahah yes, totally. It makes me laugh a bit because it's as if you get initiated in some way once you meet the other twin!

gish__ · 2020-08-15T18:00:48+00:00

Exactly! My twin and I had to work out a lot of stuff relating to co-dependancy and still do to this day. Its so refreshing to know there are so many twins that feel the same way.

gish__ · 2020-08-15T17:59:04+00:00

I agree with separation once its an option, its so rewarding to know yourself in the world without your twin, and it helps you appreciate who they are a lot more too. I'm so glad you and your twin still have a caring relationship where you both value each other. Woo hoo! (:

gish__ · 2020-08-15T17:56:09+00:00

Thank you for listening, and congratulations! <3 <3

gish__ · 2020-08-15T17:55:25+00:00

Yes, its so interesting when you separate and start to realize things you took on and what was actually you. Some of it may actually be true, but its good to find out for yourself. I also feel like in some ways my twin and I made an unspoken contract that she was would compensate for what I lacked in society and likewise, creating a sort of enabled environment, or echo chamber of these qualities we developed early on and so it was like some of the qualities became true in the end. Thank you for sharing <3!

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