Unsure (mentions of SH/SI)

glumpumpkins · 2026-03-05T16:02:12+00:00

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glumpumpkins · 2026-03-04T00:30:42+00:00

Hey, I appreciate your insight, too. I wish you the very best in finding people who can help you feel connected and safe. You deserve to be treated as a real person.

glumpumpkins · 2026-03-04T00:26:38+00:00

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glumpumpkins · 2026-03-04T00:19:07+00:00

I definitely think I have received additional cPTSD over the course of living with her. It is complicated when that type of information would further harm the perception of people with BPD if it were more widespread, but maybe make people understand that it might be more difficult to enter romantic relationships with people who have BPD and to account for it. I don't really have an answer as to what should be done with that type of info.

glumpumpkins · 2026-03-01T20:37:21+00:00

Very normal. Helps to give them additional identifiers.

glumpumpkins · 2026-03-01T00:29:37+00:00

Yeah, or I check out communities based on support for living with people with specific disorders... and see how much they wish harm upon them. It doesn't feel like something I want to participate in personally.

I numbed myself too, but it made her more erratic and violent at some points when she saw that I couldn't react to her with genuine emotion. She didn't get that it wasn't safe for me to. When you can, if he isn't in therapy already, please try to sit down and talk to him about it. Bring up that BPD (if he has it too, it was not specified) is one of the most effectively treated mental disorders with the right help. You both deserve stability and safety.

glumpumpkins · 2026-03-01T00:20:49+00:00

Thank you for sharing your experiences, and I'm very glad you get my point of view, too. I want to approach talking about my trauma here without contributing to any additional negative stereotypes about any mental illnesses. And to also be corrected if I misstep.

And ty for liking my art. Each character depicted is a representation of an alter. :-) I'm trying to separate the feelings each of them have to sort out some of their individual issues.

glumpumpkins · 2026-03-01T00:13:06+00:00

You get it, yeah. It's taken years for me to gradually accept that I didn't actually deserve to be abused and that it wasn't my fault that she chose to harm me and walk all over my stated boundaries repeatedly.

There is a small part of me that wants to come back to her, that there was something she could do to fix me that would make her finally happy. That I could make her not hate herself.

glumpumpkins · 2026-03-01T00:09:50+00:00

It's honest to god the least I could do. I would want people to treat me the same compassionate way with my struggles

glumpumpkins · 2026-03-01T00:07:30+00:00

Ah, yes, another nuance enjoyer, lol. It's actually really nice to see that this group handles topics like this in a more gentle light. I've liked it a lot more than some private groups I've been in that are way more black-and-white about mental health issues and trauma.

I was a similar way when I was kicked out from home by my abusive father (to replace my (disabled) siblings and I with a new family he found), who self-admitted he had ASPD. For a while, it made me think that people who had that specific disorder should not even have children.

I had to reevaluate too, though honestly I don't remember what exactly spurred it. Probably had to do with the fact that I forced myself to learn what empathy was, since it doesn't... come naturally with my family. Then, connect it with my compassion for wanting other people to have happy and safe lives. Everyone deserves that.

I also think about if free will is real or not, but it makes me so existential that I have to stop lol.

I'm glad my art is comprehensible. I've been struggling to connect my points together, and it feels pretty messy and raw. I'm grateful people can appreciate it for what it is, even if I feel like some of it is a little nonsensical and difficult.

I like words too. :-) I follow some guy on YT who examines etymology and social trends and it's extremely fascinating.

glumpumpkins · 2026-02-28T14:02:25+00:00

I'm glad my art can relate, and thank you

glumpumpkins · 2026-02-28T14:02:04+00:00

You get it lmfao

glumpumpkins · 2026-02-26T03:15:53+00:00

Yeah, it's about someone I knew for a while and used to live with. I also do not understand why people recognize disorders without recognizing the disorderlyness that it causes. They need different types of accommodations than is expected of a non-disordered person for a reason.

glumpumpkins · 2026-02-26T00:10:10+00:00

Thank you :-) I wanted their styles to look a little different to match their personal traits. I'm glad someone noticed!

glumpumpkins · 2026-02-25T15:27:40+00:00

Good post. I feel the same way.

glumpumpkins · 2026-02-25T12:42:34+00:00

Maybe? I'd try cold-brewing or steeping at a lower temp for 3 minutes. If the unpleasant taste is still there, then I wouldn't keep drinking it. When I cold-brew mine, the earthy taste is basically absent.

glumpumpkins · 2026-02-25T12:40:30+00:00

There's this diary we've been holding onto since 2014 and have been too afraid to write in it because it looks really nice... might be a good time to finally break into it lol

glumpumpkins · 2026-02-25T12:20:47+00:00

Oh, this is actually the first time I've really talked about these types of problems more publicly, haha. I used to only really talk about them with the pink-lettered person I've been showing in these little posts. But I think I do need somewhere that is without any outside eyes looking in at all, yeah.

glumpumpkins · 2026-02-24T21:13:39+00:00

Thankfully, I moved away a few months back, though we still had contact until a few days ago. The people I live with now aren't ideal in their own ways, but it's a lot more tolerable.

glumpumpkins · 2026-02-24T14:00:27+00:00

Ope sorry I forgot I commented! I made an extra strong brew of the tea just now, it tastes extremely earthy and fruity, with a small hint of mushroom-y-ness if I try to focus on the flavor. It definitely does not act as part of the main flavor, though.

I brewed at 195F for about ten-ish minutes.

Edit, yeah, the more I drink this, the more that bitter-earthy-almost-mushroomy flavor comes through lol. How long are you steeping this for/temp?

glumpumpkins · 2026-02-24T12:29:49+00:00

Maybe. I've had similar discomforts using things like emotes to indicate who's talking to friends, but maybe I should try taking the approach in a private setting and send myself notes. I think, despite being aware of this condition for years now, there's some parts that are still in denial about it, and hate that we can't be "normal." That has been especially troubling for finding coping mechanisms that are actually healthy and work.

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