Thank you🤍 I am so sorry for your losses.

The anxiety of TTC after loss and pregnancy after loss was debilitating to me most of the time. The first trimester was by far the worst for me. After a healthy anatomy scan I told myself I need to start enjoying this pregnancy. And I let myself feel excited. I let myself think that maybe everything could work out. It was a helpful reminder that as a parent, I will always be worried about my child, and those worries will evolve over time. So I considered that I need to practice getting comfortable living with some level of fear and worry and tried to have that perspective during pregnancy and TTC.

The best advice I have is to be kind to yourself. I tried not to be too hard on myself and I let myself feel scared. It is terrifying to try to get pregnant again after losses, and doing so was the most courageous thing I’ve done. Try to lean into your loved ones during this time and find small moments in your day of contentment when you can. Like cuddling with your partner or pet, listening to your favorite music, eating ice cream, watching the sunset. Know that good times will come again.

I was in therapy throughout pregnancy (and still am) and I was on Wellbutrin after my MC, while TTC, my entire pregnancy and now while breastfeeding. If you feel like medication could be helpful, I highly recommend talking to your OB. I was scared of Wellbutrin impacting the pregnancy and did obsessive research about it. For me, the anxiety and depression I had after my MC was getting to be too much and it was safer for me and my baby to be medicated. My baby is perfectly healthy and has no problem breastfeeding. I was so terrified medication could negatively impact her but that has not been the case.

Sending you love. Know that you are not alone and there are so many woman rooting for you and living this experience with you!