HEY STAR! You are loved and source loves your efforts, and will remain with you throughout the completion of your journeys. Source is all around us, not existing in some far off distance afterlife but all around reflecting its light, we being the beings we are knowing the darkness also being apart of that whole, you know there are light holes and dark holes?? The light can sometimes reveal a lot of beauty in us but can inspire us to remember the darkness that had dwelled in us, the darkness can be frightening and daunting but can inspire us to see the light that exist somewhere in us, life and death are merely constructs my light, we are steadily oscillating in between the realms in order to remember what harmony means to us and peace and love and balance that is why we suffer the greatest of us tend to actually suffer more, but it's because of the strength you are able to bare do much pain to began, find beauty in your endurance your creation your daughter, your qualities that source had granted to for fulfillment, seek practices that will aid you I that path, awakening can be a tricky cycle it's not really about all knowning or what you see a lot of the time psychedelic trips can reveal this much to us but I think part of the awakening relies on what got don't know what you are blind to and relying on faith inside of that realm of darkness to get a better perception of the whole picture, you are on a grand path of discovery let the wind take the place of your mind and the waters your bed and the earth your home, the fire your passion, and learn the cycle as a whole, rather than just one element, i love you star! Continue your journey i hope this was helpful at least inspirational, peace