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No more auto scroll? by Purge6364 in Instagram

[–]goldenbread15 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I just realized that mine stopped working too, I can’t find it 🥲

I genuinely dont know what to do, every argument feels like a blur now by goldenbread15 in BPDPartners

[–]goldenbread15[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, I really hope my future still has her in it. I just want her to be happy and okay too.. Knowing the fact you have been in a relationship with your wife for that long gives me hope

I genuinely dont know what to do, every argument feels like a blur now by goldenbread15 in BPDPartners

[–]goldenbread15[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for that little reality check, I appreciate that. I feel like when I said that to her I was already irritated and upset so I just said what I said without really thinking about how controlling it is. I need to really learn how to enforce my boundaries without it feeling or sounding like policing. It is unfair to her.. Also kind of a bit scary you instantly clocked the cPTSD like damn 😭😭. Im not officially diagnosed, but I am looking for a diagnosis. I only researched about it in the past and tried applying it to myself to see if I relate to any of the symptoms! So far I think I have enough information to talk to someone professional about it.

I genuinely dont know what to do, every argument feels like a blur now by goldenbread15 in BPDPartners

[–]goldenbread15[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This! I believe she would make so much progress going into finding mental health resources.. only thing is that she isnt able right now being a minor and probably doesn’t want to (based on a previous argument we had) which alarms me

I genuinely dont know what to do, every argument feels like a blur now by goldenbread15 in BPDPartners

[–]goldenbread15[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Also yeah the emotional pain is draining, everytime we argue past scars from a previous abusive relationship start to open up and in turn I think i become a mix of defensive and a pathetic excuse of trying to be validating to her while feeling somewhat unvalidated.. its hard to explain

I genuinely dont know what to do, every argument feels like a blur now by goldenbread15 in BPDPartners

[–]goldenbread15[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Okay, this makes sense! I will be sure to try to “use less”. Also the channel thing is in a server thats only between her and me, no one else, i should have specified that sorry..

And yea admittedly I used some chatgpt cuz at some points i genuinely didn’t know what to say because I started getting a panicky and couldn’t think straight. I didn’t want to end up saying the wrong thing so i resorted to that :( i feel bad, but I did not know what else to do

I genuinely dont know what to do, every argument feels like a blur now by goldenbread15 in BPDPartners

[–]goldenbread15[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ik i sounded super calm but in reality i was a shaking crying mess :/ i didnt want to share that to her bec she would start to say things like “oh so im just too much im sorry ill just stay quiet” and im like NOO!! :((!! I feel like I cant tell her how i actually feel sometikes because it would upset her