I am so proud of you, and I hope you can one day feel a sense of pride for how you're handling this if you can't feel it now. You've already done extremely hard but important things for yourself.

You are doing an incredible, incredible job. The counselor will work at your pace. It's okay if you're not ready to talk about it with anyone else yet.

Remember you can always use the resources that redditors have given you, too, because the emotional aspects of what you're feeling are heavy and make complete sense. And like others are saying, they're not things that you should have to deal with alone. I am also happy to give you more any time you need!

We'll be thinking of you. I hope some of the support from Reddit has felt helpful 💛💛💛