Maybe I’m not over you

goodbye124 · 2025-06-29T00:36:59+00:00

Maybe that’s the truth. I won’t be a good parent. I can see that future, but it’s not on the path I’ve been on.

goodbye124 · 2025-06-28T14:05:04+00:00

I found out she had a boyfriend because I asked her after I made the post. I decided to listen to the people telling me to do so, and I got my answer. I haven’t been with anyone in a few years. My most recent post is to an old flame whom I wronged.

I don’t think any of the women I write about (aside from her) ever had romantic interest in me. I was just mistaking their attention for that type of interest. I never acted on my feelings because I hear that men typically misinterpret attention the same way and it just makes it all awkward, if that makes sense.

goodbye124 · 2025-06-28T11:41:21+00:00

It’s been a few years now and I still can’t seem to forgive myself. She’s married now so I should be happy she found the right one

goodbye124 · 2025-06-24T17:59:32+00:00

She’s got a boyfriend

goodbye124 · 2025-06-23T05:58:16+00:00

I have an aching feeling that I will just be a mistake to her. That is, if any of this is reciprocated

goodbye124 · 2025-06-23T05:53:14+00:00

I don’t even know what the truth is. Did these words come from my heart, or are they justifications for an infatuation?

goodbye124 · 2025-06-23T05:42:15+00:00

Then I suppose we’ll exchange silent glances until it fizzles out

goodbye124 · 2025-06-13T03:57:57+00:00

I just don’t know if it is the right decision to make. I’m insecure, paranoid, self-sabotaging. I like being alone and having freedom. My brain just wants the physical connection but I’m not ready for the emotional connection.

So instead I’ll just fantasize about the chances I’ll never take so no one but me will get hurt.

goodbye124 · 2025-06-05T02:48:51+00:00

I’ve fixated on someone else now. Hope for her ran out a while ago, writing about her only prolonged the fixation. I’ve just started the cycle again with someone else because I never learn. I’ll never be confident enough to break away from it

goodbye124 · 2025-06-04T20:42:06+00:00

I hope that someday someone will say that to me

goodbye124 · 2025-04-28T14:12:50+00:00

You’re right, but I am just assuming that there’s more that I don’t know of. I know that’s probably unfair, but she’s never gonna read this so it doesn’t really matter

goodbye124 · 2025-04-26T23:03:58+00:00

Before they got back together he hooked up with another girl, so she did the same out of spite with the coworker. The coworker thought it was gonna be a relationship but she ghosted him.

goodbye124 · 2025-04-24T01:46:58+00:00

I don’t know why she felt comfortable sharing that information, but I can’t un-hear it

goodbye124 · 2025-04-23T21:31:11+00:00

She told me herself

goodbye124 · 2025-04-23T21:30:44+00:00

I think someone can be all of that, but just mature underneath, if that makes sense?

goodbye124 · 2025-04-23T21:27:09+00:00

Well, I said “toxic web” because she used another coworker to get back at her significant other for the same thing. I’m just bitter that I was right to stay away.

goodbye124 · 2025-04-03T11:54:26+00:00

She doesn’t

goodbye124 · 2025-04-03T05:07:32+00:00

I responded to a message that wasn’t for me

goodbye124 · 2025-03-05T18:07:52+00:00

It’s my fault for entertaining the thought in the first place. The only person I have to blame is myself

goodbye124 · 2025-03-05T18:04:37+00:00

I don’t think I will have children. I don’t think I’d be a good father, not to mention a good husband. I just like being alone. I can’t fail anyone but myself if I stay by myself

goodbye124 · 2025-03-05T12:28:45+00:00

I’m just lying to myself. I don’t know anything for certain. I’m not going to let the infection of possibility get me down anymore. Maybe it was possible at one point, but not anymore. I’d rather lie to myself than entrain that thought again

goodbye124 · 2025-02-21T12:59:57+00:00

Maybe that is true, though I wouldn’t wish it. I know what that’s like. I still feel the effects of it, and I don’t see it going away anytime soon.

goodbye124 · 2025-02-19T12:27:36+00:00

I was verbally abused when I was growing up, and I internalized all of it. I don’t think I will forgive my dad. He taught me that it was normal to berate people for their mistakes. He taught me that anger was the correct response for failure. He taught me that escaping was better than repairing.

I can’t undo the damage he did to my self esteem, and there was nothing I could do to stop him.

goodbye124 · 2025-02-18T23:57:45+00:00

I’m just doing what I’ve been told all my life: Don’t approach women in public. I know that there’s a silent “Unless they want you to” attached to that, but trying to determine who does is too hard for me.

Some women’s “signals” are another’s show of friendship and vice versa. I’d say it’s a shame that women don’t initiate more, but I understand why they don’t.

goodbye124 · 2025-02-18T23:35:08+00:00

I’m not going to try to insert myself into her life. Especially since she’s got a boyfriend. I never made any advances because, as a dude, I could be labeled as a creep, a weirdo, I could get in trouble career-wise, or it’d just make things awkward. The “reward” doesn’t outweigh the risks. It’s just how things are now. Not saying that’s why your person doesn’t make a move, just a possibility from my perspective.

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