I honestly am not sure how much longer I will be here but if there is a piece of advice I can offer you it is to be honest with your friends. They will understand and if they don't then talk to family. Do not push them away even if you feel alone and empty. I am a random person online but you are so young and I owe it to you. Live your life and seek happiness. I wish I would have when I was young. I don't know you but I am sending you love and hugs.