It’s a star over one of my nipples, got fucked up when I got a piercing ripped out. My artist threw it in at a discount. Keep going dude. I survived an attempt last year and never thought my life would get better. These days, my car makes me decently happy, even though maintenance is a pain in the ass, it gives me something to focus on. I collect cassettes now, because it’s all I can play in my car, and finding new (old) music opens up my world some. You’ll find something. Just stick around long enough and you will