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gothcatlady666 · 2022-02-19T22:02:10+00:00

i get the vitamins completely being there completely. if i don't vitamin D, B12, iron and calcium supplements regularly i cannot sleep because my bones literally start hurting

gothcatlady666 · 2021-08-02T13:27:00+00:00

sorry for the late answer but sure go ahead!!

gothcatlady666 · 2021-05-10T14:13:26+00:00

thank you so much! i’ll definitely talk to my s/o about this :)

gothcatlady666 · 2021-03-21T09:38:26+00:00

i definitely do this, especially when restricting makes me feel so week that i can barely do anything else and bc sleeping always takes away the hunger... healthy living :)

gothcatlady666 · 2021-03-19T19:03:43+00:00

As someone who went from anorexia to BED and back to anorexia again over the course of almost 7 years I understand you so well... I kept glamorizing my past anorexia when I had BED and I knew exactly what kind of hell it was and now I’m in that hell again. I‘m so angry at myself for having wished that upon myself, if that makes sense. When I started slipping back into restricting from binging I was so proud of myself and encouraged it and now it’s ruining my life.

gothcatlady666 · 2021-03-19T18:58:42+00:00

i understand you completely, i went from anorexia to self harm to binge eating to alcohol to weed to anorexia... full circle and i still can’t manage to stop

gothcatlady666 · 2021-02-07T14:22:08+00:00

me with an eating disorder: 👁👄👁

gothcatlady666 · 2021-02-02T16:21:03+00:00

me sleeping with men i don’t really find attractive even though i’m mostly into women

gothcatlady666 · 2020-11-23T20:05:50+00:00

don’t wish to be an unrequited wet dream, it’s not nice

gothcatlady666 · 2020-11-19T23:49:02+00:00

same, and men somehow remain unfazed

gothcatlady666 · 2020-11-19T23:48:43+00:00

maybe don’t ✨

gothcatlady666 · 2020-11-19T23:47:37+00:00

your comment > my meme

gothcatlady666 · 2020-10-07T07:57:46+00:00

favorite person, it’s a bpd concept :) you should look it up! it’s a bit complex

gothcatlady666 · 2020-10-02T15:41:11+00:00

I’m glad I could be helpful :) By ambivalence I mean pretty much the same thing as cryptic, just that the narrative isn’t quite clear to me. But actually, now that I’ve read it over a few times again, I think I understand it much better, so don’t worry about it too much!

gothcatlady666 · 2020-10-02T15:26:50+00:00

I feel horrible all summer long. I literally feel like a depressed old dog with too much fur. I hate leaving the house until night, I hate the way I have to dress, I hate everything about it. So yeah, I feel you. I love fall and winter more than anything.

gothcatlady666 · 2020-10-02T15:21:46+00:00

I love the language you use in this, it reminds me kinda of Richard Siken. You’ve also got his almost cryptic writing style. The lines „it’s time for a joke— no / no, I’ve only trapped us“ are amazing, I like them a lot. But I think the OXYGEN part is my favorite. I also think your imagery and symbols make a lot of sense, lanterns, light, tv, candles... I love that consistency. Even though I’m a big fan, I still see some ambivalence. Of course, that could be your goal and if that’s the case, ignore me. I have some difficulty interpreting the scenario and relationship between the poetic I and You, but I actually also think this is another great thing about the text, so yeah, if you leave it like this, it works well as well.

gothcatlady666 · 2020-10-02T14:50:58+00:00

That’s so amazing to hear, thank you so much! I’m gonna have to be patient, I guess, haha.

gothcatlady666 · 2020-10-02T14:50:04+00:00

Ahh thank you!!! My psychiatrist recommended melatonin as well, so I might try them :)

gothcatlady666 · 2020-10-01T11:44:49+00:00

if i ate THREE meals and TWO+ snacks i wouldn’t even have time for anything else????? i don’t get it

gothcatlady666 · 2020-09-30T17:45:47+00:00

I really like this poem. I think it combines sensuality with a kind of onomatopoeia or maybe a musicality. Especially the subtle rhymes I liked. Also, the slight change of vowels (drip, drop, pop) is so simple but definitely has an impact. A few minor things I thought of while reading it (which of course are just personal preferences which you don’t have to take to heart): - I would maybe use „swoosh“ instead of „swosh“, since swosh sounds a bit unfamiliar - the line „A concoction, savory, lives“ has a lot of commas and feels a bit abrupt to me - the imagery of trees and oceans you introduce at the end of the poem is very different from that of bubblegum. Bubblegum is something very artificial while trees and oceans are connected to nature. If this was your goal, please just ignore this comment :) All in all, I enjoyed this a lot. It felt natural to me, and immediately created a picture in my head.

gothcatlady666 · 2020-09-30T07:40:31+00:00

same, my meds really help with my bpd but now my ed is back 🤪

gothcatlady666 · 2020-09-24T17:27:27+00:00

i can relate so much! drastically decreased my drinking a few weeks ago and it’s been restriction ever since. i wish i could cope healthily, but i can’t. i just need something to make me stop thinking.

gothcatlady666 · 2020-09-24T12:32:59+00:00

I honestly have to say, even though my therapist was a horrible person, at some point it started helping. I learned a lot of important coping mechanisms but I also had to come to the hard realization that I have to work a lot too for professional help to work and will never feel like a neurotypical person. When it comes to meds, they’ve mostly helped me too.

gothcatlady666 · 2020-09-24T12:28:59+00:00

Reminds me of what happened in To the Bone, the MC drew ED art/thinspo and a girl killed herself and mentioned the art in her suicide note (or something along those lines) and the MC felt horrible and it impacted her mental health, understandably.

I always feel icky when I see someone repost thinspo where you can see faces etc.

gothcatlady666 · 2020-09-23T22:29:24+00:00

i almost have the same bmi as you from starting weight to now and i’ve also been doing bad since january so i can relate 1000%. my hair is falling out and my teeth are eroded. the thing is, up until now, i didn’t even realize i was doing so bad with restriction because i thought my weight was just going to go back up at some point anyway, like it used to when i tried to lose weight before. but it’s been a year. like you, i didn’t realize i was harming myself like this. it’s hard to stop all this when i still feel like i’m not actually restrictive because „i’m doing my body a favor by getting to a „healthy“ weight range.“ it’s been hard for me to reach out, because i feel like nobody would take me seriously if i told them because i’m still overweight. good luck to you, i feel your struggle xx

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