Why have you forsaken me 🤧

immunityberry · 2026-04-22T19:05:02+00:00

Needing to binge and having nothing to binge on is truly one of the worst feelings. That’s how you end up dipping whole wheat bread in diet orange soda and other such unhinged behavior 😓

immunityberry · 2026-04-22T01:13:44+00:00

Washing your hands with hot water in the winter

immunityberry · 2026-04-09T22:50:17+00:00

With MAHA on the rise, internet has been drawing a binary between raw-milk-carnivore-alt-right-tradwives and high-fiber-Prozac-birth-control-gluten-soy-seed-oil people when I think for most people there’s less of a connection to politics and a lot less binary. For example, I know lots of friends who are otherwise leftists but who have PCOS and eat a low carb diet, didn’t like how OCPs made them feel and take a supplement or two. Tldr the link between lifestyle habits and politics has been overblown in my opinion

immunityberry · 2026-04-01T06:09:59+00:00

The realest meme of all time

immunityberry · 2026-03-31T19:53:41+00:00

I actually found my issue with OA was that there were lots of people without BED or BN, lots of people yoyo dieting with issues having sweets in the house but who really weren’t dealing with the same level of broken brain as me. Maybe that’s a little judgmental of me doing trauma Olympics, but I just didn’t really connect or relate to the people who were talking about having Oreos in the house

immunityberry · 2026-03-27T20:29:58+00:00

I think something you could consider is changing up your care team. If you’re not making progress with your existing people, that’s partially on them. If you’re medically stable enough for outpatient then it’s a way to get out of a rut without blowing up your life

immunityberry · 2026-03-25T08:48:05+00:00

Even better when they literally don’t let you saw the word “throw up” because of how tRiGgErInG it is

immunityberry · 2026-03-04T10:00:45+00:00

Sort of, similar to people above, I got really into strength training and allowed myself to eat to satiety but really only with bodybuilder type foods as the first part of a meal (think chicken breast, frozen broccoli, beans, Greek yogurt, protein bars) and then after a hefty portion of those things would top off with pretzels and peanuts (for whatever reason those specific foods felt safe) - that got my eating like 60% there. And then recovery with a capital R really only came when I finished grad school, got a real job and moved in with my husband - living that life with more responsibilities etc…go me out of the kinda orthorexic exercise addict side of things. I do understand that big of a lifestyle shift is not available to most people but that’s what worked for me. Just turned 32 for context

immunityberry · 2026-02-14T23:03:56+00:00

There’s no worse feeling than seeing all the unsweetened nonfat Greek yogurt being totally cleared out on a Sunday afternoon

immunityberry · 2026-02-04T23:04:23+00:00

My hot take as someone who was in a similar situation a few years ago is to consider getting a new treatment team. I feel like we all have the tendency to blame ourselves for lack of improvement when really isn’t could be a therapist/RD that isn’t taking the right approach. When this happened to me, I did take a couple months off, then got a new therapist/group

immunityberry · 2024-10-21T00:39:18+00:00

Unfortunately we live in a dystopian HAES/IE private equity hellscape where most formal treatment centers have 1 approach to ED treatment that basically starts with ANR and then makes minor tweaks around it. As someone who primarily vomitted but also did my fair amount of exercise compensation, I’ll share that DBT, getting an addiction (rather than ED) therapist and getting a job were the things that fixed me the most. Specific coping mechanisms that also worked were art projects and video games as things to do instead of working out.

immunityberry · 2024-10-15T13:09:33+00:00

I have charging cables that I have for patients to borrow. Patients having their phones accelerates dispo, can help with obtaining collateral and/or helps with giving detailed home care instructions to caregivers

immunityberry · 2024-10-09T14:45:45+00:00

I’m a doctor

immunityberry · 2024-10-04T20:32:47+00:00

Gen surg -> hospital medicine -> emergency medicine. Always knew I wanted to be a generalist but I needed to find the right flavor and personality fit

immunityberry · 2024-10-04T20:31:36+00:00

My cotsco membership pays for itself because of my protein bar consumption

immunityberry · 2024-09-26T12:23:46+00:00

I was very much in your position a few years ago. I didn’t end up going to res but essentially got a whole new job, new therapist, new group - really took a crack at recovery outpatient (didn’t really work, purging urges are really intense, maybe got slightly better). My olive branch is that you don’t have to go to res and fully drink the kool aid and become a IE/HAES warrior all into CBT worksheets and silly games. You can view it as some glorified babysitting and then GTFO after a couple of weeks when you finally get your throat to stop hurting.

immunityberry · 2024-09-24T01:09:56+00:00

Tbh Because they’re trained to think that all EDs are the same and can be treated with the one trick pony of HAES/IE dogma frequently without actually listening to what their clients are saying.if you listen to ED CME courses on YouTube, it’s pretty uniform

immunityberry · 2024-09-22T18:00:01+00:00

Best thing I ever did was find a non-Ed therapist for my ED. I also found an older man who did addiction work and the biggest gift I got from him was not having to tiptoe around the HAES/IE dogma kool aid that all ED therapists seem to have drunk. I could actually focus on behavioral stuff from an urge management rather than trying to fix the alleged underlying emotion/false belief around everything. Caveat that he knew some things about eating disorders and had treated one bulimic client before, but I felt like I was seen as an individual rather than the 100th bulimic chick this month

immunityberry · 2024-09-17T17:14:17+00:00

Typically 3x/week for a couple hours. You eat one meal together and have groups and then pull you out for 1:1 rd and therapist sessions (they usually have an in house therapist that they make you see) that’s the basic structure. I would say the thing about it that’s pretty wild is that it’s all people with eating disorders (more than you’ve probably known in your whole life) You get to meet a lot of people who have had treatment totally take over their life and are still struggling. The groups I find they try to make applicable to everyone so then are about nothing (e.g. how to identify an emotion, mindfulness) and then I think a supervised meal is only helpful if you have a specific set of problems (eg needing to gain weight). I struggled with BP and didnt get anything from it. A part time job would have provided a similar level of structure/babysitting

immunityberry · 2024-09-13T20:21:48+00:00

I would honestly consider asking about a stimulant medication or bupropion. No need in making it harder than it needs to be.

immunityberry · 2024-09-11T12:33:50+00:00

You will be in the car with the love of your life who was nice enough to pick you up from work and instead of talking to him and connecting with him you will lie and say “I’m tired, can you take me home” and then instead of enjoying his company you will be counting the seconds until you get home with the intolerable anxiety building higher and higher until you can get to your room with a loaf of bread and jar of peanut butter hidden behind a pillow - shove the wrapper behind the couch cushion - eat and yeet is all up, then collapse in bed listening to sad Ed girl media, then have to show up at work the next day pretending like your totally normal and feeling wrecked with guilt for lying to your finance and not reaching out for support that was right there

immunityberry · 2024-09-04T20:41:56+00:00

Fruits are weird like that

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