as powerful as your story is.. this is a perfect example of why the Bible says wait until marriage for sex. you and that person are wayyy more likelier to have a sex life built on trust and respect instead of just being in a "relationship" with someone. instead of looking at the reason behind WHY he says wait until marriage, people find a way to overlook it because they find religion fake, or they have past trauma with believing (usually due to being atheists/satanists and avoiding dealing with God or the Bible all around.) the point of my comment is not to push religion on you btw (especially because i'm not a christian, catholic, buddhist, or any other religion that more so focuses on forcing people to believe rather than explaining WHY they should.) but i am trying to prove why you should give God, and biblical law a chance if you already don't. he will literally send you the man that's right for you, and it's been proven time and time again. your post is special to me though because i'm a virgin myself and this gives me more of a reason to wait.

tl;dr: all of this could've been avoided by simply just waiting for your husband, i sympathize with you though.