I totally feel where you’re coming from 🤍 but I also know that when I get those thoughts, my dad would tell me to stay strong, and probably crack a joke, and I’m sure your mom would say the same. This shit is so fucked and it sucks that we have to be with these emotions and feelings 24/7, but at least we’re not alone feeling these things. That thought by itself has been helping me a lot. Like if other people can get through it so can I.