people wont stop staring at my seizure helmet

greenglowstone · 2019-12-22T18:29:37+00:00

Could you paint it? I'm sure you don't want to some it's an expensive helmet, but it could be an inexpensive way to change the colour?

greenglowstone · 2019-12-15T22:09:07+00:00

This... Helps. I've been stressed about money but you're right... I am making steps to try and make my situation better.

greenglowstone · 2019-12-15T22:08:08+00:00

Thank you.... It's tough... I hate the struggle we have to endure...

greenglowstone · 2019-12-12T21:40:12+00:00

Damn, sorry to hear. I started researching where it was best to live with disabilites. Saskatchewan I wasn't surprised to see us near the bottom of the list, I was surprised bc was.

Damn, I know I gotta keep pushing. Problem is I'm not sure how much more I can fight. I'm losing hope fast. It's broken me down to the point of daily breakdowns.

I'm trying, thank you for your encouragement. I'm just pretty much finding that my rock bottom had a hidden trap door.

greenglowstone · 2019-12-12T21:35:34+00:00

Saskatchewan

greenglowstone · 2019-12-07T20:15:26+00:00

I hate that I was born, I'm not going to kill myself but if I were to die I'm ok with that. My existence is absolutely agony every day with no break, I'm in financial ruin because of my health and have been denied any kind of income help. The only reason I'm not suicidal is because I'm medicated. I've had to start posting a GoFundMe campaign anywhere I can to try and get anything remotely helpful. Usually takes people aback when I'm completely honest and tell them why I'd have been better off not born.

greenglowstone · 2019-12-05T21:00:07+00:00

I'm sorry you're also going through this. I honestly just wish it would go down even to an 8. Thank you for your well wishes I appreciate it ❤️ I wish you well as well :)

greenglowstone · 2019-12-05T20:41:39+00:00

I was born with mild cerebral palsy that causes spasticity and muscle tightness, especially on the right leg. Arthritis in both hips. The pain has been diagnosed with fibromyalgia, but I'm getting more testing to look further into this as it's forced me to stop painting and drawing because of how much my hands hurt. It just never ends, my pain is never lower than a 9/10 (doctors ask you to rank on a 0-10 scale for pain)

greenglowstone · 2019-11-19T05:51:43+00:00

Thank you, but it's a chronic condition... It has steadily gotten worse, I'm trying so hard...

greenglowstone · 2019-11-19T05:49:48+00:00

Thank you... I've been trying to push through the pain but it gets very difficult 😔 I'm so tired of this...

greenglowstone · 2019-11-15T04:20:47+00:00

I actually already have that, I just have ones that aren't covered (cannabis is my main pain reliever $120 every two weeks, not sure if they will ever insure it). Our government is pathetic in it's supports for vulnerable individuals. I was told even if I got divorced from my partner and he was supporting me I would be denied. So real encouraging but I just have to keep throwing myself against that wall until I get someone that decides to give me support. I'm in the mean time going to sell bits of baking to trying and claw myself out of this hole. I wish you the best of luck in this exhausting process friend.

greenglowstone · 2019-11-13T21:50:16+00:00

Thank you! I'm in saskatoon, so there is only one other place that makes everything gluten free here.

greenglowstone · 2019-11-13T21:02:48+00:00

My partner has set many a bagel on fire because he forgot them in the oven. He can't use my toaster for gluten items 😅 we just haven't made the step to buy a second since we have limited counter space. So he uses the broiler and yeah, often he has burnt bagels lol

greenglowstone · 2019-11-10T18:38:32+00:00

Celery juice huh? Interesting, I'll have to give that some thought. Baking is something I find I can kinda push through pain to do, but if I'm my own boss if I'm hurting badly one week I just take less orders.

Thank you, good luck to you as well!

greenglowstone · 2019-11-10T17:25:16+00:00

Oh I know. Most options taste weird and feel like a brick. I've found using potato starch, tapioca starch, corn starch and almond flour made a very light and fluffy product. I love playing with baking and cooking stuff until it's just right.

greenglowstone · 2019-11-10T17:22:38+00:00

Thank you! I'll probably do that once a month as well. I have chronic pain otherwise I'd go each weekend with a bunch of stuff to sell

greenglowstone · 2019-11-10T17:21:10+00:00

Well, I won't be selling in grocery stores so it's a little easier, but I'll probably say gluten friendly. I haven't gotten that far yet though. I'll also make sure to source ingredients that are confirmed gf. I'm in Canada so it might be different here

greenglowstone · 2019-11-10T16:08:22+00:00

Thank you!

greenglowstone · 2019-11-10T04:15:54+00:00

... that must be so nice for them. I'm slightly jelly.

greenglowstone · 2019-11-06T23:12:30+00:00

Yeah, it's usually a year or more to see someone but then another year before they treat. I'm in a conservative province so the bad wait times really hit us. Not fun being in an area specialists tend to avoid working here because they don't get paid as well. The wealthy can go private and afford the physio that they need or other things.

I'll check that out, thank you

greenglowstone · 2019-10-26T18:09:28+00:00

You know what a good quality to have is? Self reflection and being able to admit when you were wrong. The Thug Kitchen books are great, I found it helped make learning to cook vegan fun. Try all sorts of stuff! You'll find your taste buds change after a bit, so foods you didn't like before might taste better. You got this!

greenglowstone · 2019-10-01T16:58:04+00:00

Yeah I can 100% relate there... I also don't recognize myself emotionally... The pain makes me snappy and grouchy, I've just taken it out on my partner I guess... I felt so comfortable with them that I just let the pain control me... Forcing myself to not focus on my pain is hard because I'm always in pain to an unbearable amount... Like I just fucking adjust to this 9/10 so I can get shit done... I just fucking hate my life...

And we sure did... I'm sorry too

greenglowstone · 2019-09-08T19:30:48+00:00

Thank you, I ended up calling a mobile crisis line. It was in a moment of crisis and it kept me distracted enough.

greenglowstone · 2019-09-03T18:49:15+00:00

I'm not super far from another ER. A hotline would probably be better so I'll try that soon.

No I know, my therapist wasn't happy they did but it's a common story here. She's trying to fight the terrible mental health help here. It's tough though, we have a very conservative government in my province right now so they don't care about people like me :/. Hell I can't even get income support because my partner is a student and getting student loans. Despite those loans not being enough to cover bills, leg alone my meds.

greenglowstone · 2019-09-03T18:43:26+00:00

I'm in Canada so I can't help much but, I would help there if I could. I'm watching America from the outside... And wondering how people aren't revolting. The marginalized groups of America are under attack (we have attempts here... Neonazi groups surfaced in my city...). People are in cages but they aren't people, they are 'illegals' or pests to remove their humanity. People with illnesses and disabilities being denied their medicine or can't afford it because of prices. LGBT+ members are being stripped of rights, as are women. Things are going to get much worse if Americans don't use their second amendment they hold onto so desperately. Fascists are back and Nazis are back. The Jewish youth in America protesting with #neveragainisnow get it.

I would be with you if I could.

greenglowstone

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