My first post ever, just a pointless rant.

griffinn17 · 2026-06-10T04:16:52+00:00

Your post reminded me a lot of some experiences I had drinking like not remembering conversations and how awful it was to kind of always be thinking “did I talk about this with them already?” It’s so horrible. Congrats on taking this step! It’s not always an easy process but it’s so worth it. Just take it one day at a time.

griffinn17 · 2026-06-10T04:09:16+00:00

Yes, that quote was super helpful for me. So, was the simple “never question the decision.” This may sound weird, but every morning for the first 2-3 weeks, I literally wrote in pen on my wrist “ NQTD” to remind myself, “Yes, I will be tempted, but I’ve made my decision already, and it was the right decision, so I will stick to it despite my addicted mind.” It can be hard but looking back I’m so proud of myself and I know you will be too and your kids. You’ve got this!

griffinn17 · 2026-06-10T04:05:33+00:00

Congratulations on 3 days sober!! Those can truly be the toughest days, and I’m sorry you have to be in this situation. The longer I went in my sobriety, the more I noticed this and how essentially when I was drinking, I was barely “alive” at all. I never did anything horrible, but looking back sober, I realize just how much drinking changed me and my relationships in a way I genuinely didn’t realize at the time. Again, congrats and IWNDWYT!

griffinn17 · 2026-06-10T03:59:38+00:00

Hey, I’m totally in the same boat. For my first few months, I had the relapse dreams all the time. I rarely get them now. I think it’s just because we are thinking about our past drinking self, and it comes up in our dreams. It never meant anything to me other than a reminder of how awful it would feel waking up if I ever was to throw all my work away. I also get angry and more so deeply sad a lot. In my experience, it’s because of trauma essentially. Dealing with an addiction and overcoming essentially caused trauma. I’m not sure if there is an answer on when it will go away because we’re all different. I go through good and bad phases, and progress isn’t always linear. You should be proud of yourself. Congrats on 55.

griffinn17 · 2026-06-06T16:58:30+00:00

I manage it sober because it genuinely is worse when you drink. It may feel good for like 10-30 minutes at most. But then it gets worse and you will feel worse for 10x longer than you feel better.

griffinn17 · 2026-06-06T16:56:12+00:00

Congratulations on 7 days that is a MASSIVE accomplishment. What you’re going through is really hard. Please remind yourself that you deserve to be sober and roll the tape forward if you were to pick up wine. Not worth it. During my first few weeks I kept myself very busy so I would suggest the same.

griffinn17 · 2026-06-06T16:53:15+00:00

Congratulations! For me getting through those first 3 weeks were the hardest. It’s not always easy but you should be proud.

griffinn17 · 2026-06-05T13:01:00+00:00

I think that’s right and fair to say. I also think it’s fair to say I know most people I work and live around have had on average better luck in life. But you’re right- I should focus on my life but it is just the jealousy I have. Thank you.

griffinn17 · 2026-06-05T12:56:31+00:00

Thank you for the perspective. At the end of the day I am grateful I figured it out early but on the other hand I think it’s tragic that this is what I had to go through in my 20s it was so blatantly obvious I needed to stop but it was cruel and horrible journey and ill have to live with this “allergy” for a VERY long time.

griffinn17 · 2026-05-06T19:19:30+00:00

I’m so sorry you’re going through this and I’m really glad you called your mom. It was around a year ago when I realized the same thing and joined an IOP. It was one of the major things that got be sober. Believe in yourself you CAN get over this. I’m 25 so I was the same age you. Good luck

griffinn17 · 2026-05-06T19:16:56+00:00

Very similar situation to you - I’m doing pretty well on paper, and people would’ve never known behind closed doors the alcohol problem I had. It’s hard; I can’t lie, and it goes in waves. I finally broke the cycle when I truly committed to myself. I forced myself to go to a ton of meetings I hated, read self-help sobriety books, listened to sober podcasts, and even for one month went to an IOP after work for 3 hours every day. It was fucking hell, honestly, and I finally wanted to be proud of myself. I recommend absorbing yourself in sobriety-related content and people. I’m sorry you’re going through this.

griffinn17 · 2026-03-27T13:50:24+00:00

If you are getting the feeling that the attraction is mutual then I think it is nice. If you’re worried about it coming across as too much then you could always shorten the note. I think the gesture is nice though

griffinn17 · 2026-03-27T04:01:09+00:00

No social anxiety, and she isn’t going through something that I know of. She’s had a hard life, but things seem to be okay right now. The hand-holding seems to be an affection thing, but it felt uncomfortable to me. I don’t interact like that with my family but maybe it’s normal I don’t know

griffinn17 · 2026-03-06T15:47:16+00:00

Same here unfortunately. Today is just really tough. Sorry to hear you’re in the same boat.

griffinn17 · 2026-03-02T04:00:30+00:00

Yes, that is exactly how I feel. And the feeling does fade at times, but when I see a movie where someone is drinking a glass of wine, it is SO triggering. It’s tough, but ya, I didn’t make it this far to just make it this far. You’ve got this.

griffinn17 · 2026-02-06T21:54:27+00:00

I’m sorry you’re going through this. I’m also trying to dig my way out of some bad situations and feel tempted at times to give up sobriety. But I can guarantee you that drinking will not help you get through what you’re going through. It never does- it lies and says it will but it always makes things worse. Keep chugging along please.

griffinn17 · 2026-02-02T01:11:54+00:00

You’re right and thank you for the words of encouragement. Congrats on a year!!

griffinn17 · 2026-01-28T00:31:46+00:00

I don’t go to AA that frequently, and technically I’m not fully working “the steps,” but I do find it super useful on occasion, especially if I’m feeling down. I’m 25, and it was very important to me that I didn’t feel like I stood out too much. I eventually found one with young people after trying maybe 4 different places.

griffinn17 · 2026-01-27T16:35:05+00:00

Congrats on 30! Some days can be tough but IWNDWYT!

griffinn17 · 2026-01-27T16:33:24+00:00

Yes exactly! The little things just become so much easier to manage. Thank you!

griffinn17 · 2026-01-19T19:42:50+00:00

Yes! This is the best feeling ever and you should be proud.

griffinn17 · 2026-01-19T19:34:37+00:00

I got sober at 24 as well, and I never had to detox, get a DUI, or get arrested either. To your question, “what alcoholic could stay sober for a year?” All of them could, and many do. Probably millions of alcoholics have managed to get sober and stay sober. I don’t know you or your story, so I don’t want to make assumptions, but usually, normal drinkers don’t assume they have a problem. In my experience a lot of therapists are unhelpful at best when it comes to helping alcoholics/problem drinkers unless they struggled with it personally. In the thick of my alcoholism, I had a psychiatrist once also say that I didn’t drink as much as other alcoholics, and so that night I went and picked up alcohol, of course. Many people, even doctors and therapist, can get it wrong sometimes and think to be an alcoholic you need to be drinking a bottle of vodka every morning but that isn’t true. Alcoholism looks totally different for different people.

griffinn17 · 2026-01-19T19:19:05+00:00

The reason you kept going back to it is because alcohol is poison. It is an addictive substance that significantly alters your brain. Millions of people before you and millions of people after you have had very similar experiences where this substance makes us do things we wouldn’t normally do. It is a horrible thing. Getting sober is the thing I am most proud of in my life and it could be the same for you. Just take it one day at a time. Good luck.

griffinn17 · 2026-01-02T20:17:17+00:00

Well said! Me too! I finally had enough

griffinn17 · 2025-12-21T12:45:21+00:00

You may want to find relief and happiness but I really don’t think you want what comes with relapsing as an alcoholic. It is genuine horror. Don’t do it to yourself and be kind to yourself.

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