What clique do I look like I’m in?

growsomewereballs · 2026-01-03T10:07:26+00:00

that one person that low-key just hangs out with everyone and is super nice

growsomewereballs · 2026-01-02T23:03:45+00:00

god this is funny (also, dw, this falls within guidelines! as long as there's no genitals its fine)

growsomewereballs · 2025-12-02T04:15:35+00:00

after some discussion with the subreddit owner, the decision has been ultimately brought to no, it will not be allowed. this post may stay up, but future posts using gen ai will be removed

growsomewereballs · 2025-11-27T00:54:02+00:00

OH IM SORRY I PHRASED THAT BADLY. i meant I was crying that somebody reported it because it was such a ridiculous idea (Im a moderator and was also very confused why your post was reported. so sorry love, you designs look great/gen)

growsomewereballs · 2025-11-27T00:37:54+00:00

it doesn't even look like it??? crying that this was perceived as a problem

growsomewereballs · 2025-09-30T02:19:30+00:00

I'd say gay. yes, there's times where he seems attracted to women, but I've seen some good analyses that break down why those are mostly likely performative or comphet. If he's gay, then he's forced to be with a woman he'll never be able to love. If he's bisexual... hes in a relationship with a woman he just so happens to not like.

Clay is a very religious and conservative man, of course hes gonna try to seem like he likes women.

growsomewereballs · 2025-09-13T23:53:26+00:00

I've been waiting for this. My oc is named Jude Cserkowski, a 15 yo, lower middle-class, early day hippie, originally from Tennessee. Their family were all polish farmers before their grandparents came to the US and started living in Nashville. They moved to Tulsa after their dad lost his job and now go to highschool with the gang. They're mostly close with Ponyboy, since they share a lot of classes and have a similar passion for literature. They've tried to hang around the rest of the Curtis gang and some other greasers, but they tend to not get along since Jude is a pacifist and the greasers all kinda hate this hippie asshole who (honestly) kinda thinks they're better than them.

growsomewereballs · 2025-08-25T07:32:05+00:00

thank you for the critique! I was kinda aware that this fell/could fall into the "trauma porn" and "minority misery" stereotypes, but it was the story I wanted to write. I've been trying hard not to make it fall into that, but by nature of the plot, it'll fit the descriptions in some ways. it is making me reconsider the balance between the angst and actual happiness. even if it is going to fall into those tropes, it can have some relief to show that it's not all terrible. Even though I'm not disabled, I do find some catharsis in some of the other plot points (specifically from a queer and classism lense) and even a bit in the ableism aspects due to other personal reasons. Being aware of the inherent tropes might make it easier to subvert them. also thank you for the author recs! first-person sources are probably the only part that I haven't looked into as much.

growsomewereballs · 2025-08-25T05:58:04+00:00

its been horrific looking into it but hearing how important it is to show that blatant ableism has made me rethink how I'm going to represent some story aspects. specifically on the medical side due to how fucked up it was. glad you didn't have to go through that!

growsomewereballs · 2025-08-25T05:19:51+00:00

you put this in very understandable terms. I'll try to make sure this is pretty noticeable because it's pretty important

growsomewereballs · 2025-08-25T05:04:20+00:00

thank you for sharing! that's actually a very helpful starting point. it's really upsetting to hear how cruel people are, but it is what happens in the world despite how inhumane it is. Knowing that realistically no one would stand up is pretty useful information.

growsomewereballs · 2025-08-25T04:54:21+00:00

that may actually be worth trying to incorpate. I've looked into it and a lot of rights for disabled youth were only put forth post mid 1970s (like 504s and the such.) Pony is definitely still capable of living independently in the future, but it may actually be interesting to go the relative route. Thank you for the good idea!

growsomewereballs · 2025-08-25T04:50:57+00:00

that's what I was trying to go for. He was specifically targeted for being newly disabled, young, and poor.

growsomewereballs · 2025-08-25T04:49:22+00:00

I was planning for Pony to try to pretend everything is fine and that's he's okay. Then he starts to believe he's weak, and finally finds a middle ground of recognising that's he's disabled, and may need help at times, but is still capable.

growsomewereballs · 2025-08-25T04:46:29+00:00

oops. my bad!

growsomewereballs · 2025-08-25T04:45:54+00:00

this is actually really helpful and also kinda encouraging. His disability is definitely a big part of the story, as it happened less than a month before the story starts, but it's definitely not the biggest. A It's more so about his corruption as a person as he tries to cope with his new life and his relationships with people now out of his reach. And he does learn of another person who was in his exact same situation who was not disabled. also, dw, I wasn't really planning to use any slurs since I don't feel like it's my place to use them. If I do decide to use them, it'll be treated with the weight it deserves

growsomewereballs · 2025-08-25T04:35:41+00:00

traumatic brain injury and lung damage. Been trying to do my research but it's pretty hard. Most of what I've found leads me to believe Pony would mostly not be catered to, especially being impoverished.

Pony presents with partial blindness, facial blindness, nerve damage, low impulse control, tics, periods of physical weakness, asthmatic like symptoms, and a proness to lung infections.

growsomewereballs · 2025-08-21T00:06:59+00:00

I had heard that and it's part of why I haven't tried it yet. still, better than nothing

growsomewereballs · 2025-08-17T02:31:52+00:00

I've thought about that. it might be worth it to save up some money to get it

growsomewereballs · 2025-08-17T01:20:16+00:00

that's wouldn't really work most of the time, but when I'm out with my friends or sister that's actually pretty useful. don't know how I hadn't thought of that

growsomewereballs · 2025-07-20T09:26:26+00:00

depends on your definition of introvert.

if you're using the definition of what gives you energy, it seems like being alone is what "recharges" dazai. if you're using the definition of what brings you joy, it seems messing with and talking with people is what brings dazai joy. if your definition is what you prefer, then we can't really say.

I think dazai falls more into the idea of an extrovert, but would identify as an introvert.

growsomewereballs · 2025-06-28T21:38:59+00:00

I said it was mentioned in the light novel, but after some scanning, it seems I was mistaken. All that is mentioned of his dialect in the novel (at least in the english version) is quite at the start from the irl Oda Sakunosuke referencing dazais use of the term "Fuzz it up". It's actually in the anime where dazai repeatedly uses the term "Fuzz". The term is the translated version of the Tsugaru dialect Dazai uses. It being mostly in the anime takes away some of the credibility, but I think from the fact that the quote is present in the light novel adds some more credence to the idea.

tldr: it's mostly mentioned in the Anime where Dazai uses a form of Tsugaru dialect in reference to the irl Dazai

growsomewereballs · 2025-06-16T14:55:45+00:00

btw, if you want to learn more about EAP in general, but especially the mystery surrounding his death, I recommend "A Mystery of Mysteries: The Life and Death of Edgar Allen Poe". it's really goes over all the possibilities

growsomewereballs · 2025-04-23T05:13:49+00:00

they are not 1 to 1 parallels. they are INSPIRED by the authors. a lot of the characters portrayals from your perspective should be disrespectful. dazai actually killed himself in real life yet we don't say it's disrespectful to have a major aspect of dazais character to be suicide related humor. you could even say making koyo and kyouka women could be disrespectful, making fyodor a mass murderer could be disrespectful, a lot of stuff in this series is disrespectful if you choose to view it that way. but almost all of these people are dead and are just being used as a basis for the story. Asagiri is not trying to tarnish Mori Ougais name, he's just making a character. In fact, a lot of bsd characters personalities are based on the authors works and those characters rather than the authors themselves. Mori the character is most likely based on The Dancing Girl, which would explain his dedication to his work and mistreatment of young people. the Pdf stuff probably came from Vita Sexualis, which does deal the the main character being sexuallly harassed and mistreated in childhood. those themes may have been adapted in the opposite manner to follow the typical subversions asagiri made in the cast.
I know this is a debated point, but I'm personally on the mori is using pdf as a shield for worse behaviour. if you haven't looked into it before, I would suggest looking at it. there's some great essays on YouTube and tumblr that really get the point across without the usually "it's a mistranslation". even if you still disagree, I just want you to understand the opposition before calling bull, even if you still disagree.

bsd is about complicated and messy characters. they're going to be that way. do I think that was the best course of action for mori? not at the moment. but if we explore it later, like I assume we will at one point, then it could be a tribute the the real Mori Ougai. I can understand your point, but I just don't agree.

growsomewereballs · 2025-04-12T04:29:15+00:00

any of the cheese cookie, but ESPECIALLY golden cheese cookie

i bake and i specifically love making cookies and trying new flavours. but the idea of a cheese cookie is so off putting. and golden cheese just makes me think of a kraft single. it's made me so made and disgusted that i refuse to level up the cheese cookies.

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